CARMEN THINKING - THE SOUND INSIDE A SEASHELL PART 1

NO CONNECTION

May 8, 2014

I'm typing in the words I feel
But my keyboards broke
I'm singing the finest love song
But its coming out choked
And the pain is
What the shame is
If love is WI-FI
We have both lost the network key

And its me
Tears flowing in the glow of my PC
Asking all the questions
But Wikipedia can't answer me
Who shall it be?

I Google confused
It said
showing the results for "confused"
do you mean "carmen"?

If love is WI-FI
We have lost the network key
Baby is it me?
Is it me?

TODAY I AM BEAUTIFUL

May 8, 2014

A new girl in the mirror
You have made me see
Out of all the mummy's you could have chose
But you decided to choose me

I remember the first time I held you
It was like holding a rainbow
I remember realizing you are mine
And it made me feel like a hero

I look at you and I see the most beautiful person ever
They told me to not have you, so glad
That I told them "never"

I remember the first time I heard that
You look like me
And how the discontent I had about my looks
Faded immediately

I never liked my eyes or nose
I could never really see
But after seeing Carmen on your face
I fell in love with me

I used to feel ugly and weird
Like I just can't fit in
But you showed me that I'm gorgeous
And that I can win

Arden my daughter, my hero
You gave me a new start
The change is not just outside
You also gave me a new heart

LOSING MY RELIGION

May 8, 2014

is this how it feels?

never ever come close to this empty before,

and now
I drown in it
I break for it

you hope so hard
believe so long
AND YET
look
the house is gone
the trust is broken
the purse is empty
and
the healing
the healing will never ever come...

Empty
And
Broken
My
Faith
Has
Been
Stolen

TELL TALE SIGNS OF A FAIRYTALE BOOKMARK

May 8, 2014

with my whole heart
with my every breath
and with such fierce unyielding emotion, consciousness & raw hope.
Raw, Unwavering, Unapologetic, Unmatched, Untouched and quite simply UNBELIEVABLE hope; that goes way way beyond everything I thought I knew possible.
In my heart: a thousand fairy lights glow, and the band plays a slow and sweet familiar song whose name and lyrics evade me...
You turn in your sleep and your hand finds mine simply because it belongs there...

SEARCH PARTY HURT PARTLY

May 8, 2014

I was there
A minute ago
I turned around
And I was gone
And in my place was a girl with a sad song
A sad love song
That goes on and on
Its just too long
And the love's too strong
But sometimes you know
You were not wrong
Until you went along
And then you sang that song
Why did you sing it?
You didn't mean it?
You seem too love this circus so be a clown
And go on
Travel and be gone
And I will cry on
Looking for myself
When I'm long gone
And sometimes you just don't want to be strong
And your tired of being wrong

And there goes that song
That song about me
And how I'm gone
For so I have been gone
I forgot myself and carried on
Seems I knew I'd never be back all along