Only his ~ Ashtray/Euphoria

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I just woke up and it's like 3 in the morning and i really need a drink. I tried to move them realise there's strong arms holding me down, I smile realising he's still cuddling me. Then i gently try to move his arms so i can get up and once i finally do it i slide off the bed and start to tiptoe across the room as not to wake him up- but i did.

"Where the fuck you think your going?" Ash says in a sleepy voice.

"Um i'm just thirsty i'm gonna go get a drink" i say and turn to continue out the room.

"No your not get the fuck back to this bed bitch." he says, but he sounds angry now.

"Ash I just want a drink i'll be back in a mi-" i try to say but he cuts me off.

"Gabriella i said get back in bed now" he says and i give up. I don't wanna argue with him and clearly he's angry since he just called me my full name, so i just climb back in the bed and shuffle to the other side of the bed and curl up.

"Get the fuck over here the fuck you doing" Ash says and reaches his arm out to me to try and pull me back towards him.

"no Ash i don't wanna cuddle with you." I say, scared because he's still angry and i don't know why.

"I said get the fuck over here right now." he says and manages to pull me back towards him, i squirm underneath his arms and try to move back away. "stop fucking moving Gabi go back to sleep." I give up trying to move and relax in his arms. as much as i didn't wanna be in that situation it still felt safe in his arms.

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It's the next morning and i wake up and it's 10 o'clock, Ash isn't there so i decide to go downstairs. When i get down there Ash and fez are sitting on the sofa talking but as soon as they hear me they shut up and turn.

"Morning Gab" Fez says and looks me up and down and looks at Ash "why she in your clothes?"

"morning Fez, i forgot to pack a bag so he gave me clothes." i say smiling then turn to walk to the kitchen.

"do i not get a goodmorning ma?" Ash says and i completely ignore him. "What the fuck?" he says again probably talking to Fez and Fez laughs quietly.

"Fez you want breakfast?" i say blatantly still ignoring Ash.

"Yeah please girl i'm hungry." Fez says and i can tell he's smiling. Ash scoffs and i hear him get up and walk towards the kitchen. He walks up behind me , grabs my waist and turns me around to face him. I push his hands off my waist and turn back around and he does it again.

"What the fuck is your problem Gabi? you mad at me or sum?" Ash says his eyes travel my face like he's trying to find an emotion through my expressions, I screw my face and scoff.

"what's my problem? more like what's yours? why the fuck were you so horrible last night and expect me to brush it off like that *i snap my fingers*?" I say and his jaw drops and Fez laughs.

"Pahhhh Ash i wouldn't mess with her if i were you. you teenagers funny ash man." Fez says laughing his ass off as he exhaled the smoke from his joint. "anyway i just want my food so hurry up with this argument please and thanks." he turns back to the tv drastically changing channels.

"what the fuck i'm sorry i didn't think it affected you that bad. I wasn't even rude I was tired and you tried to leave and I wanted you back in the bed so i could hug you again. I'm sorry gabi oh my god." he says but doesn't sound sorry probably cause he doesn't wanna sound weak in-front of Fez.

"Hold on you guys cuddled?? what the fuck lmaooo you guys moving weird." Fez says shocked but still laughing.

"Yeah you better be sorry. I didn't even do nothing and you just shouted at me for no reason like how the fuck was i supposed to react?" I say carrying on the mad act even tho i wasn't angry because he just said sorry. he's never said that to me before like ever.

"Okay now can you make me breakfast?" Ash says smirking.

"The cheakkk on you ay? go sit down you idiot." i say laughing as Fez and Ash join in. he turns and gos to sit back in the couch with Fez and i hear Fez whisper something but can't make out what. I brush it off and continue to stir the pancake mix.

10 minutes go by and i've finally finished the breakfast and lay the last fork down on the table. "Foods ready boys. come sit when your ready." i say and sit down in front of my plate and start eating. They both get up and sit down, thank me for making them food and we chat and laugh the whole time while we eat.

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About an hour later we're all on the couch watching this weird show Ash loves. I'm laying with my head in Ash's lap and legs across Fez. It's actually pretty comfortable. Ash then gently lifts my head, puts a pillow underneath it and stands up.

"I'm going to the bathroom, i'll be back in a minute." He says and turns to leave without waiting for our reply's.

I sit up and look at Fez with my feet still resting on him. "Fez, can I ask you something?" I say nervously. maybe that was the biggest mistake of my life because of what i wanna ask him, but it's better to get it over and done with i guess.

"Yeah ofcorse, wassup?" he says exhaling smoke and passing me the joint, i take a long hit and inhale as i feel the burning sensation in my throat and the roof of my mouth, then my nose as i exhale the smoke out of it. I pass it back to Fez and take a deep breath.

"Has Ash ever like.. talked about me to you? like at all?" I say then bite my lip anxiously waiting for his response.

"pft yeah, a lot actually. why you ask sis?" He says chuckling and i swing my head back cringing. I cant tell Fez i like him he's gonna tell Ash.

"Uh idk. Just wondered i guess... so um what exactly does he say?" I say trying not to make my smile obvious by turning back to the Tv.

"Like i said, a lot. but if you tell me why your asking then maybe i can tell you what he says about you, deal or no deal? up to you sis." he says and i can still see him focusing on my face out of the corner of my eye. I sigh and turn back to him.

"Well if i tell you, you have to promise not to tell Ash unless i want you to. deal?" i say and put my pinky out for him to pinky promise me. He's never broken one of those so i know this will work.

"Deal. so why you asking huh?" He says smirking.

"So.. Um.." i mumble trying to put what i want to say into words. "I kinda.. maybe.. have tiny feelings for him i guess you could say?" i finally spit out and continue to stare at him to try and read his face. His jaw drops and he smiles at me then starts laughing. "Fezzz stoppp your making me nervous you have to tell me now." I say pouting and my leg starts to bounce but that's just my anxiety, Fez doesn't notice tho.

"Okay okay fine, but he's actually gonna kill me..." he says and huffs as if he's also struggling with finding a way on how to word his sentence. "He might like you too? when i say might i mean he does. like maybe a lot.. i don't really know but he talks about you a lot. Like when you went to sleep last night and he came down to talk to me- he was asking me for advice and what to do. it was quite weird because i've never heard him talk about a girl like he talks about you. but i promise i won't tell him if you promise not to say anything?" i try to contain my smile when i hear those words come out of Fez's mouth, but i can't stop the redness rising in my face- i put my hands to my face and smile under my hands. I then laugh and put my pinky out to promise Fez i won't say anything. I'm speechless fr.

"I- I don't know what to say, i never ever thought Ash could feel that way about anyone, especially me.." I say shocked but still smiling.

"tf you mean girl your beautiful fr.. but honestly, if i can't tell him then i think you should the only way it will go is good. he deserves to know too.." Fez says giggling.

"I will Fez, I will, thank you- I owe everything to you for real. You my brother for life." i say and put my hand out to do our shake that we've had since i was little.

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That's enough for today's chapter icl im really tired and it's 5 am when i'm writing this so life is fun and i'm going to sleep. there will be another one tomorrow don't worryyyy. hope it's good so far:)