rendezvous

15

[ Ryle, special point of view]

¬ 15th Rendezvous

Kani-kanina lang ay nagsasaya ako kasama siya, sa isang iglap ay bigla nalang gumuho ang kalahati ng mundo ko. My mother, my mother. My goddamn mother, had died.

Masaya ang gabi ko, dahil nakita ko muli ang pinaka-mamahal kong paraluman. But in just a split second, one of the best woman in my world was sulked by death.

I never imagined this day would come, a few hours ago, i was kissing her om the cheeks before i left to drive to bulacan, and now, i will never have the chance to see her hug me again and tease me about my love.

Sa dinami-rami nang tao sa mundo, bakit siya pa? Bakit si mama pa? She's the only one who supported me when i was down. The woman who climbed with me on the stage and was captured by a camera while we're holding my diploma. The woman who supported me on my dreams of being a teacher.

Ma naman, ang daya daya mo. Ang sabi mo hihintayin nating dalawa si Maureen sa altar? Akala ko ba aasahan mo magiging apo mo saakin? I thought, y-you're never going to leave us? Not until we forgive my damn father?

You loved him so much, that you left him just for him to be happy. And that's why i idolized you ma, kasi martyr ka. Kasi gagawin mo lahat para sa taong mahal mo, para sumaya sya.

I hate you ma, and i love you ma.

I hate you because you left us so early that i didn't have the chance to thank every little and big things you've done for us.

I love you ma, because you're the best mother i can have. Because you never failed to amaze me. And because you did a great job raising your kids.

I promised you, i will not cry. But, i can't handle it ma. I'm sorry, na kahit sa pamgako kong huwag umiyak kapag nawala ka, hindi ko natupad. But i promise, i will love Maureen till the end. I promise to have the happiest ending with her.

This fight, is for you ma, and for my love. 🌞