We Are Each Other's Forever | Jerrie

11. One Last Kiss

*Warning: I love you so much :3*

Heey!

Oh my gosh, don't even get me started ✋🏼 I know it took me long. to post, and not just here but in the other two books as well 🙈 (yes, they're three now. shame on you if you haven't visited the new one 💅🏼 anyway)

Truth is I've been through a few things here and there, and then school... I don't wanna put up excuses cuz I would never end, but one thing that I'll say is that I didn't fully like last chapter 😭 I think everything went too fast and some parts were confusing... 😭 sooo, I mean, I won't delete it, I'll leave it there to document my progress or some bs like that, buuut I tried to improve and solve some uncertainties in this part 🤗

Hope you like iiit! ❤️

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Jade's POV

I was in Perrie's kitchen, looking through the window that had the view to the back garden, where the party tent was; the sun was setting, and I was taking my time, sipping a very well-deserved glass of rosé. Just pondering.

You know that feeling of belonging, when you're in a group of people that make you feel like you are part of the team? Like you fit in? Like you're useful? I've always felt like that with Perrie's family: her father is lovely, just like her siblings; earlier I found myself involved in a chit-chat with some of her aunts and her nana, from South Shields. And don't even get me started about Debbie. She's literally like my second mam.

For example, an hour ago. Part of the sound equipment stopped working: Debbie immediately turned my way and I knew exactly who to call; I dialled one of our studio friends and he brought us a pair of spare speakers, plus a karaoke machine.

Once everything was under control -even improved, if I can say so myself-, Debs came to me and hugged me, she gave me the rosé and an adorable squeeze on the cheek as a thank you. See? I liked that. I wanted to be a part of that.

But then some other times I felt so... out of place. Like right now: I was literally staring at Perrie's friends outside, singing and dancing around with her; Georgie, Bethany, Lucy and Lydia... all of them beautiful, glamourous women. Always looking amazing and being so... sure of themselves. With a confidence I could only dream of; long life romances, trusty friends. Life in place, settled. Beautiful families on their own...

It sounds dumb, but I can't help to compare myself with them. It makes me feel ill, and... a little jealous. Cuz I don't belong there, I couldn't just go and join them in the fun. I feel I'd kill the vibe.

All these thoughts made me shiver... but it was also cuz it was getting cold. A moment ago, Perrie had changed into a pair of comfy trousers and a hoodie... and she lent one to each of her friends. Ugh...

I mean, she gave me one as well. Her favourite, actually. I know it is cuz she always wears it, and even after the laundry it still smells of her, of her perfume. I'm sure she didn't even realize it...

You know what, Jade? Forget about all that, is stupid, we can have different circles of friends, and that doesn't have to change a thing between us. Cuz... Perrie loves me! She has shown me, and that's exactly what convinced me to stay by her side. And I always will.

Unless...

Unless I knew I was meddling in some way; with her family, with her dreams... if being with me hurt her, or the baby, I will step away without thinking about it. I love her, but I rather seeing her happy from afar than suffering for keeping me in her life.