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As Jean was wrapping my hair, I couldn't stop crying. I was so scared that the same thing would happen all over again. I can't take it anymore. I need an escape from the monsters that haunt my dreams. I hate sleeping without Jean next to me. He really helped me without him even noticing. He made me forget everything in my past.
"Y/n I'm going to get you some water ok, I'll be right back"
"NO NO YOU'RE LYING CAUSE YOU'RE
NOT COMING BACK" I yell at him, I fall to the ground and start crying even louder. He stares at me a little shocked at me suddenly yelling.
"Please- please don't leave" I whisper
"Ok I won't leave, I'm right here" he says scooping me up in his arms.
He sets me down on the bed and lays next to me. He lets me lay on top of him. He draws lines down my back and rubs my back.
"It's gonna be ok" he reassures me
Not too long after, I fell asleep. I didn't want to go back to sleep but the inevitable came. My body needed the sleep. I had the same reoccurring dream as soon as my body was
Adjusting to sleeping. I just can't catch a break, can I?
"Y/n, Y/n wake up please" Jean says, lightly shaking me awake.
I jolt up and look at my surroundings.
"Where am I?" I see Jean's concerned face under me.
"It's ok, you're safe, you're with me"
I lay my head back down on his chest and let out a heavy sigh. Tears forming in my eyes again.
"Y/n, you were crying and pleading in your sleep"he says continuing drawing lines on my back.
"I'm sorry"
"No don't apologize you can't control those kinds of things" he says to me
"Jean, Could you stop rubbing my back, I'm so afraid to fall back asleep"
"Sure" he stops moving his hand along my back.
"What happens in your dreams? If you don't mind telling me. It just hurts me so much to see you like this"
"Well they only happen because when I was younger, I had an older brother. We got along just fine until one day he stopped talking to everyone. He didn't talk for about 3 months. I was sleeping one night when I heard some strange noises coming from my brother's room. I went to check up on him when I saw him kneeling on the floor with a knife to his throat. I begged him to put the knife down but he only said that he hated me and he was glad
That he was about to die because he never wanted to see me again. He said it was all my fault. He killed himself right in front of me. My parents blamed the whole thing on me and forced me out of their house" I say, I figured now was the right time to tell him the truth. He deserved to know what was happening to me at night.
"Omg I'm so sorry that happened" He says to me
"In my nightmares that replays over and over and each time I try to do something different hoping he wouldn't do it, but each time it ends the same" I tear up again. I never told this to anyone before.
"Y/n, I'm sorry you were going through all of that alone"
"But I have you now and the nightmares don't come back unless you aren't next to me"
He just stood silent. I don't blame him. What was he suppose to say? I don't even know what to tell myself to make it better.
"Why don't we go get some water ok?"
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