~Carl Grimes/Chandler Riggs Imagines~

No Note

I left with no note. They have no idea where I've went, or why. If I told them they would of tried to stop me, but now I wish they did. Leaving was probably the worst decision I've ever made. I had a group about 3 months ago, and I was happy. We had a huge prison to keep us safe, but I left, to find someone that is most likely dead. Worst of all, I left my love, kicked it behind. I had a boyfriend, Carl. He was amazing. Before I left, our relationship was taking a turn for the worse, going downhill. I don't know what did it, but we became distant. Because of that, I was going through a very insecure stage, and I thought no one would miss me. Of coarse I don't know if they do, I haven't seen them in forever.

I still love Carl dearly, and now I am regretting leaving so much. I miss him. I love him, but I left to find family, my sister, Sarah. She's only a year older then me, and we were best friends. We saw each other not too long ago in the forest, but soon got split apart by a crowd of walkers. Now, I've been on a look for her, but after 3 months, I haven't seen her once. I've decided to go back to the prison, back home. I haven't been able to sleep with the regret, crying over a boy. I should be tougher, but I know I won't be unless I go back.

I've been slowly making my way back to the prison. I walked pretty far out looking for Sarah, so it's taking me a long time to get back, but now, I can see the top of the prison building through the trees. A few more minutes and I'll be at the gate. I started to cry when I saw it, tears of happiness of coarse. It has been so rough out here, especially being on your own. Scavenging houses, every car you see, for a bit of food and supplies.

I stab about 6 walkers, grunting multiple times in the process, as I step through the forest. They better still be in that prison. If they aren't, I don't know what I'm gonna do.

I hear a sea of groaning and moaning coming from the prison ahead. I can see the crowds of walkers at the fence. What I need to do now isn't anything new. I find a stray walker coming my way and carelessly shove my pocket knife into its forehead, pushing it to the ground. This is the fun part. I stab the pocket nice into it's stomach, and guts ooze out. Yum. I quickly cover myself head to toe in smelly monster guts. Although I may have slimy gross stuff all over me, I can't hold down a smile. I'm almost home, I'm going to see Carl, Rick, Michonne, Daryl, Maggie, everyone. My family. If they let me in of coarse. What am I going to tell them? "I left because I thought you all hated me"? No, I don't think so... although it is partly true. It's stupid, I know. I don't understand what I was thinking 3 months ago.

I continue walking closer to the prison, and now I can see the walkers clearly. Slowly, I walk into the crowd. I limp around, trying to make my way to the gate. My heart races as walkers bump into me. Stay calm.

A few gunshots go off, as walkers around me drop. I look for the source of the gunfire, and find Rick, gun pointed in my direction. I need to stay calm, but beads of sweat drip down my face. What if he doesn't recognize me? I finally make eye contact and he lowers his gun a bit. I grin. I thought I would never see him again. He smiles widely. "Daryl! Open the gate! She's back! She's alive!" He yells and I make my way to the gate, which is opening quickly. Rather then hobbling like I was before, I stealth-fully weave through the walkers. I can't contain my excitement. I finally get to the gate and run in, smiling. Daryl closes the gate behind me and runs to me. He was always like a dad to me.

"Y/N! Your back! Y-your alive!" He says pulling me into a hug, getting guts all over his jacket. It sounds like he's crying, and I think I might be too. "Y-ya I am." I stutter, laughing. "Nice too see you again Y/N!" I hear Rick say from behind us. I pull away from Daryl, and look at Rick. "I would hug you, but we're getting low on water and cleaning supplies..." Rick says laughing. "Ya, don't worry, I don't know why this doofus did." I laugh, pointing to Daryl with my thumb. "What?! I missed you! I thought you were dead." he says, smiling. "Well.. I'm not." I smile. "I missed you too." He smiles big then sighs. "You should probably go say hi to the rest of the group, we'll talk more later? Oh, and also, he have more new members, so you can make some more friends!" he finishes. "Alright! See you guys at supper?" I ask and they nod a "yup". I walk up to the prison, and I'm mobbed. Everyone runs up to me at once and welcomes me back. They said how much they missed me, and I've never felt so loved. Some made faces because of the smell, but they meant all the best. Carol gave me some new clean clothes, and I washed myself off in the showers. When i was done, members tried to chat with me, but Carl popped into my mind. Carl, the one person I wanted to see the most, wasn't there. I left the cafeteria, where everyone sat, and walked to the one place he could be, our cell. Smiling from ear to ear I run through the cell blocks.

Finally, I got to our cell. I stopped, just before stepping into the room, to collect my thoughts. I still have a silly grin on my face, and I've never been happier. I take in a big breath, and step around, into the cell.

What I see kills, shatters my heart. Blond hair, kissing my brown haired boy. They pull apart, and look to me. It's then that I realize the blond haired girl, wasn't just some girl, it was Sarah. "Y/N!" She yells with a smile, and jumps on me. I feel numb. Completely and utterly numb. Over her shoulder I can see Carl's face. Stunned, like he'll faint. I think we mirror each others expression. I don't hug Sarah back, because I cant. I'm frozen. My sister just kissed my boyfriend. No, my boyfriend just kissed my sister. She has no idea I know him, forget love him. This isn't her fault. Carl forgot about me. I let out a small whimper. "I- you- Carl- how-" I can't get my words out. I pull away from my sister, and back out the cell slowly. "Y/N, please listen, I..." Before he can explain I run out of the cell, down the cell block. I don't try to hold back tears, there's no use.

"Y/N! Wait!" Sarah's voice echos through the cell block. I stop in my tracks, and turn to her. "Y/N, whats wrong?! I finally found you! Your alive!" she says, hugging me again. This time I hug back. "Yeah, you did." I say trying to smile. she pulls away and looks at me in the eyes."Now, whats wrong? How do you know him? D-do you know these people?" she questions. I nod slowly. "Is-is Carl your... do you..." she stutters. I nod slowly again, and look at my cell down the hall. "Well... dammit." she sighs and pulls me into a hug. "I'm so sorry Y/N." "You didn't know, its not your fault, Carl's the one that chose you." I pull away and look at the ground. "Carl. Ugh you know what... follow me." she exclaims and grabs my hand. She pulls me down the hall and into my cell, to find Carl sitting on "our" bed, looking at a familiar object. Before he or I can do anything Sarah run's up to him. "You broke her heart, and for that..." she yells and slaps him across the face. I open my mouth in awe, then stifle a laugh. I may be mad at him but his face is priceless. Sarah turns to me and smiles a devilish smile. "There. I knew if you did it, you'd feel guilty, so i did. Your welcome. He's all yours. I'm more interested in that Michael guy anyway." She winks, and walks past me, out the door. "I'll leave it to you, lil'sis."she says finally, and leaves the cell, leaving just Carl and I. She has always been the restless sibling. I slowly turn back to Carl, and focus my attention on the object that is in one of his hands. His other hand lingers on his red cheek. She hit him hard. He looks up at me, and I can see the guilt in his eyes. "Listen, i deserved that more then anyone, but... I found this in the woods." he lifts up the dainty object. It was my mothers necklace. She gave it to me before she died, and I haven't gone anywhere without it. It must have fallen out of my pocket while searching. "I thought you were dead, cause you would never just leave it." he says as he stands up. He takes my hand, open's it, and drops the gold necklace on my palm. "Please Y/N, I am so sorry. I love you. I-I thought i would never see you again" he states, and looks at his feet. "I- I thought you died, and I wasn't myself. I thought if I could... distract myself... I could get better. You see, I was a mess, no help to the group at all. I sat in our cell, crying half the time. And when Sarah joined, whenever I saw her all i could ever think about was you, I couldn't figure out why... but now I know..." He looks ashamed. I never told him much about Sarah, even though me and her were as close as you could get. Some things I felt should be left unsaid. I look at the cell wall, avoiding eye contact. "I don't know Carl, even before I left, you didn't care to talk to me often." he sighs. "It's was my dad. He said that if I don't work harder around the prison, since I was spending all my time with you, that he would make sure we didn't see each other at all." he said holding my hand again. I still stare anywhere but his blue eyes. "I'm so sorry." I says with sorrow. I sigh in defeat and finally look into his eyes. "Fine. You have one last chance." I mumble. He gasps and smiles ear to ear. Finally, he kisses me. Soft, yet passionately. "I love you." he whispers, pulling away. "...ugh, I love you too. Your lucky I'm me." I laugh slightly. "Very." he finalizes, and I walk the the bed, laying down, with Carl close behind. We both stay cuddling in the bed for a few minutes, as he plays with my hair, still wet from the shower. "You know, this whole situation is... not funny, but all to familiar." I laugh, snuggling my head into his chest. "How so?" He questions. I laugh before answering. Daryl tells me too much. "Like mother, like son. All I can say." I grin. He laughs, but stops confused."Wait, what?" His face shows pure confusion. I laugh hard. "Nothing babe." I continue to laugh,and he gives up, continuing to play with my hair.

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Sup people?! Sorry I haven't published in a while, I'm busy. Hopefully you liked this one, and continue to read! Also, I'll try my best to write some more soon. School is getting close to an end, so its getting a little intense XD Anyway, have a great day! xo

~Sydney