I'm His, Not Yours [Book I & II]✓

Chapter 4:The Feeling of Rejection Part 1

I woke up feeling tired. For some past days, I kept thinking about Blake. I wondered why he had yet to accept or reject me as his mate.

Whatever, if Blake wants to act like I don't exist, I'll treat him like he was never my mate, I said to myself.

I then exited my bed and walked towards the bathroom to freshen up. About twenty minutes later, I freshened up and walked to the dresser.

Since today was my antisocial day, I took out a pair of black sweatpants, a hoodie, and Timberlands. After finishing, I left my room and headed towards the kitchen. Seconds later, I saw Blake with my dad discussing at the kitchen table.

"What's going on here?" I looked at them.

"Well, good morning to you, too," Dad said.

"Good morning, dad." I walked over to the fridge and opened it.

"Aren't you going to greet your Alpha?" Dad looked at me skeptically.

I took out a bologna sandwich and closed the fridge.

I then looked up at Blake and saw him staring at me. Even though he had a blank facial expression, I got the hint that he didn't want me as his mate. Who would?

"Good morning, Alpha," I said curtly.

"Good morning." He nodded his head. For a moment, I was hurt that he didn't correct me. I wanted to call him by his first name like a mate does or even tell my dad that I was his mate.

"Is there anything else?" I cleared my throat and tried to hold back my tears while I looked at my dad.

"No, nothing else." He gave me a small smile.

I tried to return the smile, but my lips were tight. Since I couldn't stand being in the same room with Blake, so I returned to my room and locked it.

I looked at the clock on my nightstand and saw that I had an hour left till school started.

Once ready, I placed my book bag over my shoulder and listened to music from my phone. The volume was low, so I still heard everything around me.

After some time, listening to some soft melodies, I felt less tense and somewhat hopeful that someday I would be accepted by a guy who cared about me.

However, I also believed there was a slight chance that I would never find anyone since everyone judged me, and no one gave me a chance.

Suddenly, there was a loud knock on the door.

I figured that it was my brother, Matt, since he always bothered me in the morning before I headed off to school. I rolled my eyes at the thought.

"Coming." I walked towards the door and opened it.

I was surprised to see that it wasn't my brother but Blake.

"What do you want?" I looked up at him.

"Can I come inside?" He tried to step inside, but I got in his way while I placed my hand on his chest. For a moment, I felt heated sparks while I touched him. I quickly retracted my hand and felt a burning sensation on my skin.

"Why? I'm not your mate, so what do you want?" I said with attitude.

It hurt me to tell him that I wasn't his mate, and my wolf whimpered. He couldn't just mistreat me the way that he did and think that everything was OK.

"Fine, there's a reason why I've been ignoring you." He placed his hands in his pocket. "Can I come in, please?"

I sighed and stepped aside to allow him in. He walked inside while I closed the door behind me.

"What do you want?" I folded my arms across my chest.

"Jen, I know that you are my mate and-"

I laughed humorlessly, "Oh, now you know my name." I rolled my eyes.

He growled at being disrespected. "Look, I can't just accept you right away. I need to do what is right for my pack and me." He clenched his fists at his sides while he tried to control his anger.

"So you're rejecting me." I felt tears start to prick my eyes. I didn't cry because I was sad, but because I was angry.

"No." He stared at me for a moment.

I gave him a questioning look. "Then what do you mean? You have to do what is right for you and your pack. I'm not going to wait around for you forever." I responded while he was silent and ran his fingers through his hair.

"What do you want?" I asked.

"I don't know." He shrugged his shoulders.

"Then leave!" I yelled. I was frustrated after the endless amount of times that people treated me like shit.

All my life, no one has accepted me except for my family. At that moment, I couldn't comprehend the fact that my mate might be one of those people that I despised.

For a moment, he was shocked until he finally came back to his senses. He then walked past me and stopped at the doorway.

"I have to-"

"I know, so do what's best for you and your pack. Being a selfish mate is what you are," I said in a strained voice.

He stared at me for a moment too long until he finally opened up my bedroom door and walked out. I then slammed my door shut behind him.

Bastard! 

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