I'm His, Not Yours [Book I & II]✓

Chapter 5: The Feeling of Rejection Part 2

I slid down against my door while I closed my eyes.

Tears fell on my cheeks, and the wolf was silent. I thought of myself as weak for crying over an indecisive guy who was my mate. Being assertive is easier said than done.

Even though he didn't say the words, he rejected me.

Having a mate was one of the things I had high hopes for, but now that was gone. Not every Cinderella gets her fairytale ending.

Suddenly, there was a knock on my door. I quickly wiped away my tears, got up, and opened the door.

"Hey, why haven't you-" Mom stopped talking when she saw my eyes were puffy red. She realized then that I'd been crying.

"What's wrong?" She asked, concerned while she walked inside my room.

I shook my head. "Nothing," I lied.

She then pulled me into a hug. I hugged her back while I cried in her arms.

For so many years that I've been teased and felt alone, I kept my emotions bottled up inside me.

"Shh, Shh, it's OK," She said soothingly, "Do you want to talk about it?" She asked.

"No, I-"

"Take all the time you need. You can tell me when you're ready to." She looked down at me.

"Thank you," I said while she nodded her head.

"Do you want me to give you a ride to school?" She let go of me.

"Yeah, let me just freshen up." I nodded my head.

"OK," She replied.

...

While we were in the car, it was silent. I was in a daze when I stared out the window.

I thought about my past and wondered how my future would be. I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't realize when my mom parked in front of my school.

"Hey, Jen!" She half yelled.

"What?" I looked around, slightly confused, until I realized where we were.

"I'll see you later." I picked up my book bag and opened up the car door. Before I stepped out, she spoke up.

"Everything's going to be alright." She gave a small smile.

"OK." I nodded my head while I got out of the car.

Since my first class was English, I dreaded walking there. While I walked there, my heart was beating a mile a minute. I didn't know why I was nervous to see Blake.

"Maybe it's because our mate rejected us," Suzy said sadly.

"Everything will be alright." I tried to reassure her even though I didn't believe those words.

Slowly, I felt her drifting away from my mind, and she became quiet.

I knew how she felt since I, myself, lost my other half.

Once I stepped inside my English class, I looked ahead and saw that Leah was flirting with Blake.

"Slut," I muttered.

She turned around and glared at me. "What did you just call me?" She twirled her hair with her fingers while she popped her gum loudly.

"I called you a slut." I rolled my eyes. I didn't have to change into my wolf form to kick her ass, and she growled.

Before she could attack me, Blake growled viciously. She bowed her head and submitted to him.

But I wasn't affected by his growls since I had a higher ranking than him. Blake didn't question why I wasn't offering to him as my Alpha since we were mates.

The truth was that Lycan wolves were stronger than any other wolf since we were the highest-ranking wolves; our power made us more valuable to our enemies.

Over the years, The Unknown had either killed or kidnapped a lot of the Lycan Wolves that existed.

How could a wolf so strong be close to being extinct? I was the only one who kept my wolf a secret by fighting in my human form.

"Sorry, Alpha." She said.

"Get out of my sight." He warned.

She quickly walked out of the classroom and bumped her shoulders against mine.

I then dropped my books from my hand and held back my anger. I was about to pick up my books when Blake called Leah back inside the classroom.

"Pick up her books." He ordered.

At first, she was shocked, but she did what Blake ordered and handed me my books. I took it from her and walked to my seat.

I then sat down and placed my book bag in the empty seat beside me.

"I thought I told you to leave." Blake looked at Leah, who still stood there.

"Oh, sorry." She walked away.

After she left, there was a moment of silence since Blake and I were the only two in the room.

The bell had yet to ring, and now I regretted arriving early. I stared down at my notebook while I was drawing.

"It's not what you think." He finally spoke up.

"I don't care, and you didn't have to defend me; we're not together." I looked up at him, and he sighed.

"Maybe someday you'll understand it all."

"Please don't repeat what happened earlier. You rejected me, remember, and the sooner I can forget about you, then the better."

"I never said those words, did I?"

"You didn't, but you should have. I'd rather have a mate who wants me than one who feels forced to be with me."

He remained silent, not knowing what else to say. It was as if he was having a battle in his mind. Whatever it was, I was too exhausted to think about him or us. 

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