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A Little Story About HER

Are there are times you feel caged in and it seems like you cannot just break.

Are there times you feel that you are locked inside a shell and frustration eats you up that you feel bitter sweet.

When those situations around tend to knock you and sweep you off the floor and off your feet and you think there is nothing to do about it.

Instead of rising up those ninety nine times that you fell. You left your true self and true love because the bug that has been eating you up left with you a dark hole of incompleteness and low self esteem that comes with lack of self confidence.

And now you do not believe in yourself or feel you do not have anything good enough to give.

You think when they see you, they see a down cast already falling, ugly, cute, immature, grown up teenager who has gotten no gift that she needs in her life. So she dreams of her tomorrow

"She dreams of her tomorrow, a better one, not knowing that she could become that person today.

She dreams of her morning where she would wash the dry tears on her face from the previous day with the dew of the field.

She dreams of the early sunrise that would come in her favor, to give her strength and power and make her more privileged than she was yesterday.

She dreams of a place where she would break free, a time where she would come out from her cell and the world would accept her even in the judgmental society."

And that's how you think they see you, not knowing that they look up to you and then you feel as if they say things against you and what you think. And the rejection folds in and in so much that they begin to see the hurts on your face through the mirror and everyone wonders about what's happening on the inside.

And then if care is not taken; you will think you're not part of the world and was not supposed to be.

Then you mistake yourself for a mistake.

You go on walking on the streets like an empty soul and when people go on laughing; you think it's all about you and the fact of not being created to be someone on the earth creeps in, little by little. Meanwhile everyone was created for a purpose.

And it eats you and creeps you up with the shame and pins you down on the face.

Because when you see an image and so beautiful, the comparison is so raw that people think that you are overwhelmed and overemotional not knowing you wish to be created by the sculptor.

You don't see that far, excerpt from the past of negativity where everyone chips in and about about their likes and dislikes on your skin and you take it all in because that is how you see yourself.

You cry all day on your pillow, wishing for a change in your color and yourself.

But you do not forget the fact that you are alive.

Because your heart is a dark alley, vulnerable to sickness and diseases and almost fails to wake you every day, to pump blood and energy to you

Cover girl's don't cry

Well you don't see your perfect and you are the original you.

You're the one that starts all over again to make that desired freedom and reign as the CHI. Maybe cover girls like us do cry. Because when we cry, we cry when our hearts are breaking and each day it breaks because there is no challenge that we do not face or word we do not hear or relationship we do not stumble on.

But happily, we know one day; we will reign even though with our hoodies on. We will one day be the QUEENS of our QUEENDOM's

But sometimes we don't feel emotions because its either we have been broken or about to break in half, so it seems normal to us. That's when we need our freedom

We will one day become the CHI's of our WORLD's

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 I am chi and welcome to my journey of self discovery. I am back and full

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A better today is a greater tomorrow. We are the greatest and forever for life. These are my scars to my beautiful and I hope you will find yours

Self love is me....