Just a bit of fun

Jake or the hot nerd??

I went to school, hell. I hated it. I can't thinks of one thing that is good about school. Well I can if a boy at school counts then I can think of one good thing. But I shouldn't say that a boy is the one good thing about school if I have a boy friend, I shouldn't even think it. It's bad, right? Is it bad that I think I have feeling for someone else? Should I still be with Jake if I think I don't love him like I did? But I don't want to end it with him after 2 weeks, I've been dating him 2 weeks and we have had sex nearly everyday. That might be weird to you but to me it's not, I'm just living life while I'm young.
But I can't hide my feelings for this boy, he's not like anyone else I have 'loved' he is different, he's not on any sport teams, he's not one of the populars, he's what people might called a hot nerd. He's just perfect, even his name is perfect. Luke Hemmings. Just saying his name or hearing his name makes me wants him. But should I date a nerd? Would a nerd want to date a slut? He may not know I'm a slut right now, but when I start dating someone they find out that I'm a slut straight away. If a boy like him want to date a girl like me?
The whole school day I was thinking about Luke more then normal, normally it's just when I see him I'm thinking about being with him and being the slut I am with him, but not today. The whole city day I was thinking about him. I couldn't get him out my mind. Just how much I wanted his lips on mine and how much and I want to know what he tastes like. How much I wanted to feel him and let him feel me. My feelings have got stronger by the day. I can't hide my feelings anymore, what do I? What will happen between me and Jake? Will this be the end of me and Jake? Will it be a new began for me and Luke? Or will it be just a new began for me, by myself?