Just a bit of fun

2 days after the break up...

It's been 2 days since I ended things with Jake, I haven't spoke to him. I've seen him walking down the streets but some thing about him was different and I couldn't work out what. It was annoying me that I couldn't work out what was wrong with him. I've seen how he is when someone breaks up with him but this was nothing like it. Well I won't know he doesn't want to speak to me, makes my life early. It will make it easier for me to work on getting Luke to be him. Without Jake in the way I can get Luke, I can try anything I want to, no one can stop me. Luke will be in for a surprise when I try and get him. But he will also be in for a really fun time.
I haven't went to school since I ended things with Jake, I just told my mum I was ill, so I didn't need to go, but she find out I was faking so she is making me go to school today. Your probably wondering why I faked being ill, well I did because I needed time to think about how I was going to let the school nerd know I like him, he might not understand how non nerd tell each other so It would have to be a special way.

It's 6:30am and its the easiest I've been up in a while, not even usually when I'm going to school, I never wake up till about 7:30am. Today I was up thinking how to tell Luke. Today will be the day he finally knows how I feel about him.
It took me 30 mins to get to school, the the longest it ever took me. I was walking very slowly. I was scared to get to school, scared to know what was gonna happen. Loads of questions where running though my mind. "What if Luke doesn't like me back? What if he doesn't like the type of person I am? What if he had a girlfriend I didn't know about? What if he doesn't want to be with me? What if he does want to be with me, but he doesn't like the fact that I'm a slut? What if he changes everything about me? What if he is the one?" The whole way to school the whole morning they were running though my mind. All the way up to forth lesson, the first lesson of the day when Luke was in my class, the lesson I sat next to him. The only chance I would have to tell him. The time I needed to make sure he knew. The awkward maths lesson that was going on. Normally he would help me without me asking him, but this lesson he didn't. Why was it awkward for him? Was he hiding something? Did he know? Have I done something wrong? Was Luke gonna tell me something? What was going on? Why was it like this?