My Wi-Fi (Book 1)

My Wifi- 18

"Go easy on me baby, I was still a child didn't get to chance to see the world around me"

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Writing the previous chapter made me feel all of Crystals emotions

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My legs did not stop as I continued to run, my tears were running down my face freely. I had no idea where I was going but I just wanted to run, run from myself, run from my life and everything that was behind me.

I wanted the ground to open and swallow me inside, taking away the pain I felt.

I met him when I felt like I was nothing, he did not say a word to me but the smile he gave me it was all it took for him to take my heart. I thought he was mine, five years, five long years my heart beat just for him. I wanted to remove my heart and throw it away, i wanted to remove my heart and yell at it for causing me such pain.

Why did I ever fall in love, why did I let myself crumble until I had to scatter around picking up the broken pieces that were left of my heart.

I fell to the ground as a loud scream escaped my lips whilst I sobbed, I felt my soul leave my body as I felt my whole body beginning to feel drained. I am such an idiot, I am stupid. I lost the little bit of sanity left in me, I was broken now and I had Noone to help me pick it up to mend it.

Another loud sob escaped my lips as I gripped my hair in frustration, why did I ever let him come close to me, why did I ever let him come into my life. Now I had nothing inside of me that told me I was okay, I felt broken. Nothing left inside of me. I felt empty.

I knew this was going to hurt, so why did I let my self have hope for us.
I knew I was going to be broken, so why did I let him in and encourage him until he took away everything leaving nothing behind.

"Crystal." I heard my mothers voice, I felt her crouch down my arms wrapped around her as I continued to sob.
"It hurts, mother." I cried harder, my mother hugged me tightly rubbing my back as I sobbed wetting her brand new sweater.
"Make it stop, mummy." I cried out, clutching on to her, my palms fisted around her sweater as I buried my head into her chest.

"Shhh, sweetie. Everything is going to be fine." She whispered but I shook my head, nothing would be fine. Nothing can go back to five years ago and stop myself from falling in love, I could not stop myself from protecting myself.

"Why does he not love me? Why am I suffering? Why am I always the one left behind?" I continued to cry, feeling my eyes become heavy. I close my eyes in hope that this would be the last time I would feel anything inside my heart, the final time I would feel the pain of being broken.

If I could turn back time, I would go back and stop myself from meeting him. I would make sure I ran as far away from him to protect my fragile heart from the heart break I am feeling right now.

"Jacob help me." Mother yelled, her words were becoming muffled as I laid on her feeling drowsy.

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(Flash back)

I smiled watching my sister giggle as she danced around the ballroom with my father, her laugh was like music to everyone's ears. I looked around the room until my eyes landed on a boy with an intense green forest eyes, she stood beside Aunt Betsy.

His eyes were on my sister, but I could not help but keep staring at him. His eyes followed as she moved around the room dancing, she giggled as my father lifted her up into the air and spun around.

His eyes finally fell on me, he narrowed his eyebrows before a smile lifted on his lips as he gave me a quick wave before looking away. The smile he sent me was all it took for my young heart to skip a beat.

"Come, Crystal join us." My sister yelled, I smiled approaching them. My father extended his palms towards me as I grabbed ahold of his hands as he twirled us around, I joined in with Callie laughing feeling my whole word begin to spin. I felt free, as the cold air blew on me.

"Crystal, why don't you dance with Ace?" Aunt Betsy said approaching us, I smiled nodding my head excitedly. My eyes looked at Ace who eyes were on my sister who stood beside me, his hands extended which I took he narrowed his eyes as his eyes snapped towards me before he wrapped his arms around my waist and danced with me.

"My name is Crystal." I whispered, enjoying the moment I was dancing. Staring into his green eyes, a smile on my face as he looked at me.
"I know." He replied before twirling me around, a giggle escaped my lips as I felt the same cold air attack me that I had when father had twirled me around.

"Sweetie, let Callie dance with Ace." Mother said, making me pull away. A small frown on my face as Callie took my position in Ace's arm a smile appeared on his face as he danced with her.

I smiled at her enjoying herself.

Everything was right in front of my face, I was never the one but I made my self believe I was. I laid on the couch which was on the balcony staring into the grey sky as I cursed myself for not seeing it then. It was when I first saw him, when I was only thirteen.

He was perfect but I was not his perfection, I was someone who dented his life.

I was never supposed to be in his life, Callie was always the one.