me and ash had gotten close just by a teeny bit, i didn't like ash i liked him as a friend ofc! he was just a sweet friend im glad to be his friend.
i haven't talked to my bestfriend jaylah ever since the first day of school, i missed her but i remember her saying that she quit using social media and the only way to keep in touch with her is by visiting isn't like i have the money.
anyways today issss i don't know ash kinda changed me a little and that's by not looking at the time. it was fun hanging out with him but it was Thursday today.
i decided to wear something comfy and my style for school and shit i actually felt confident today so i decided to curl my hair just a little
𝗼𝘂𝘁𝗳𝗶𝘁 ❣︎
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i looked in the mirror and remembered about all the trauma i went through when i was little and at this point i was not tryna cry so to cheer me up i went to school early so i could see rue.
but i see her with a blond girl? they seemed so happy. rue looked happy for the first time and i felt some jealousy. why not me?
i went to my first period class so i could wait till the bell rings and i see ash. he smiled at me and walked over to me and sat down next to me and said "guess what" i said "hm?" quietly, he said "soo i kinda have a date?" then he waited for me to get something out of my mouth but i stayed quiet and ignored him. i didn't really wanna deal with any of this shit at all. i don't know what's wrong with me why was i feeling jealous? the feeling made me sick to my stomach
ash noticed me and said "ay bro your alright?" not sounding serious like he wanted to joke with me but i wasn't feeling it. i stood up and went to the bathroom and remembered i had molly in my pocket oh yeah i kinda did molly welll i did it for fun now i'm kinda addicted.
after a couple minutes later i felt like i wanted to cry my eyes out not bc what happened today but just my life so i did then i felt myself falling asleep.
𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝘀𝗸𝗶𝗽
after a couple hours i woke up to rue voice and some other girls voice but i felt lazy to get up and heard a other girl came in the bathroom saying "hey rue rue!" rue said "are you in the play?" some girl said "what play?" then idk what the fuck they said but some other girls came and said some shit about this girl looks? i had the courage to get out so i did then i heard the girl crying about maddys boyfriend nate. shitttt
anywho i been asleep for the whole day at school so i decided to eat so i went to go get lunch alone i missed joshua i don't know where he went but i miss him a whole lot.
i was about to sit at my table then i saw ash sitting next to a girl talking and laughing with her, i felt so angry but why? i don't even like him.
then i saw the girl look directly at me, she grinned and kissed ash... Hold up wait a minute this bitch, i had enough of this bitch nerves. i stood up and walked over to her and started beating her ass. did it hurt my hands? yes, did she deserve it? very much yes.
Ash got up and pulled the girl away from me but instead of checking if i was okay he checked her and hugged her and gave me a dirty look, fuck.
