Not allowed

Chapter 7

James set on his bed. Sirius slept in the closest bed to him. James had never felt so guilty, and he felt like he completely broke his trust, and the worst thing is that Sirius didn't even know. It was the middle of the night and he just couldn't sleep. He went down to the common room to see if someone's up.
Lily Evans set on a couch by the fireplace, reading a book about history of magic.
He set next to her. "Hi Lily" he smiled. He always called her Evans but he thought it was his best chance to get closer to her. James always felt something to Lily, but she didn't really like him, or at least before the incident. Last year, when just started to get violent against muggle-borns, Lily's best friend Severus Snape almost hit her and called her multiple times Mudblood. When the marauders heard about it they could not ignore it. With a plan planned by James they caught him alone and flipped him upside down, he started crying and since then they called him Snivellus Snape. Lily was mad about the way they did it but liked their meaning. Lily looked at him and smirked. "What's going on Potter? Why aren't you snoring in your bed?" James blushed. "I can't sleep. I feel guilty." James had two moods. Either he swallowed his feelings and ignored them or over sharing. But James trusted Lily Evans with his life. They weren't that close but he felt so safe when he was around her. "I'm listening. What have you done?" She said and closed her book, fully interested in what he had to say. James didn't even felt like he need to ask her not to tell anyone, he just knew she wouldn't. "I've done something awful. I-" he blushed "this is embarrassing." Lily looked in his eyes. "It's ok, tell me, and I'll tell you my biggest shame. You will feel better." James nodded "no. I trust you, you don't need to offer me anything." He silenced for a few moments. "Today I got drunk with Regulus Black, and then had sex with him." He said it fast before he will regret. "Oh dear god Potter-" she giggled "it's ok, we all have our weaknesses." James sighed. "You don't need to tell Sirius because it has nothing to do with him. His brother is a total different person, and he allowed to make his own choices. And it's not like you killed him or something yknow?" James actually found comfort in her words. "Thank you Lils. I appreciate that." Lily smirked, "good night Potter" she said and left to her dorm room.
Even tho James hoped she would stay.
The next day was busy. As the new quidditch captain, James was doing exams for the new people who wanted to join, Peter got a detention for blowing something at professor McGonagall's class, and Sirius had to finish his summer works. Remus was pretty alone most of the day, so he had time to go to Hogsmeade and have a chill afternoon. Just in the summer a new shop was opened, with muggle things, but adjusted to wizards. He didn't have much money but he walked in, trying to find something nice. He found David Bowie's Hunky Dory' record, and thought about Sirius.
Sirius had the longest day ever, and when he finally arrived to the dorm room he found a package on his bed, with a note. 'I am a dick. Sorry for that. Moony.' Sirius looked at that, smiling.
"I'm sorry." He heard a voice behind him.
"I know." He said without looking back.