Not Supposed to be Real - A Jun FanFiction (Seventeen)

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I stare blankly at Jun, shocked by his question. "Uhh, I'm not sure," I say too quickly.

Disappointment spreads across Jun's face, but he quickly hides it, "Oh, yeah, I'm sorry, I shouldn't ha-"

"No no no! It's- it's fine," I slightly stutter, "I just didn't expect you to ask that." I laugh nervously, "But, uh, can you give me a day to think about it?"

Jun's face relaxes and he gently smiles at me, "Of course, take as much time as you need." 

We stand in an awkward silence for a few seconds, but soon enough Jun waves and starts to walk away, "Have a good night Yujin! See you tomorrow." Jun calls behind him.

"Hey sweetie!" My mom greets me when I walk into my house.

"Hi mom," I say sluggishly as I walk to my room.

I fall back on my bed and stare at the ceiling, thinking about Jun and the past few weeks we've spent together. "His personality is always so calm and collected, it's so easy to feel comfortable around him. It's almost hard to not like him."

I sigh, still unsure. While "dating" Jun, I really enjoyed spending time with him, but I was never sure if it was platonic or romantic. "How can I really be sure anyways?"

Turning over to lie on my stomach, I bring one of my pillows to my face and aggressively sigh into it.

Part of me wants to call Jun up and tell him, "Yes, I'll be your girlfriend." And the other part of me is scared, scared that I didn't actually like him, and scared that I might accidently hurt him.

I force myself to sit up and reach for my phone and put it up to my ear, waiting for the person I'm calling to answer.

"Hello?"

"Hey Jiwon," I respond.

"Is something wrong?" Jiwon asks, sensing the uneasiness in my voice.

"Well, Jun asked me to start dating him. Like actually dating him."

"Oh my goodness!" She exclaims, "What did you say?"

I lightly sigh, "I told him I didn't know, and that I needed time to think about it. I'm not sure if I like him or if I just think I like him from pretending."

"Hmmm," Jiwon pauses and we sit in silence over the phone, "How do you feel when he's around?" She asks, leaving me confused.

"I don't know. I mean, I guess I feel comfortable." I try to think of all the times I've been with Jun. "I would say he's easy to be around. It almost feels like he has a calming effect." I admit, surprising myself with what I said.

Through the phone I hear Jiwon giggle, "Okay, another question. How did you feel while 'fake dating' Jun? Like did you wish you weren't doing it?"

"I felt weird about it at first, but recently, I think I actually enjoyed it?" I say as more of a question. "I really enjoy hanging out with you, Jun, and Hoshi."

"Okay you don't have to listen to me, but I think you should go for it!" I can hear Jiwon's smile through the phone. "Even if it doesn't work out, you won't regret not trying out."

"Yeah, I suppose that makes sense."

"Sleep on it, okay?"

"Okay, goodnight." I say, hanging up the phone. I start to charge my phone and get ready to go to bed, while also mentally preparing myself of what to say to Jun.

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The Next Day - Lunch Period

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|Y/N|
Hey, can you meet me by the soccer field?

|Jun|
Yea
I'll be there in a minute

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I shove my phone into my pocket. Sitting on the same bench from when Jun had asked me to be his fake girlfriend, I silently wait for Jun.

Apparently I spaced out because I don't realize when Jun walks up to me.

"Hey," He says softly, a light smile playing on his lips. Even though we was smiling, I notice he's nervous.

Jun movies to sit beside me and looks over to the empty soccer field.

"So, why did you invite me here?" Jun asks, even though I'm sure he knows why.

I take a deep breath, "About your question last night." I pause, still trying to find the right words.

"Yeah?"

"If you still want me to, I'd like to be your girlfriend." I say, my breath shaky, for some reason scared of what Jun would say.

At first he doesn't say anything, he just stares at me, eyes wide in shock. Slowly he starts to smile. Jun was almost smiling, but I've never seen him smile like this. This smile lit up his entire face, almost like it was glowing. And I can't help but smile back at him. "Really?"

I simply nod at him.

Jun lightly grabs my hand, "I guess Hyunwu was useful for something." He says with a chuckle.

I lightly laugh with him, "Apparently."