White Confession

CHAPTER 2

There are moments in our life we want to pause, undo, delete or fast forward. But there are really things that are out of our hands no matter how hard we try to control it. Like destiny, sometimes we question it for being so playful. We meet people we don't want to see or we don't get to see the people we want to meet!

After my out-of-place-confession, I was able to ignore him all throughout the day and luckily, we were not able to cross each other's path in the activities prepared for the recollection. I was able to escape the after effects of my grave confession and he hasn't reacted or confronted me about it yet.

But on our way home, there is a sudden change in the seating arrangement in the bus making him my new seatmate! Would you believe that! Out of the 5O people who rode that bus, where there is only a one over fifty probability that he will be my seatmate! Destiny sure is really playful and now I don't know how to react to this.

I was seated near the window when he came. I was about to smile but my smile hanged into the air because he looked at me expressionless. We looked at each other, no words were spoken but there was an extreme awkwardness in the air, like suddenly, there is a cold wall between us. He sat beside me quietly, still no words were spoken to break the ice.

I looked outside the window. What would have happened if I didn't tell him what I feel? I smiled bitterly. Maybe, when he learned that I'm his seatmate in the bus, he would come to me excitedly, tap my head and say, "Yehey your my seatmate!" And then, we'll talk about a lot things. And my ride home will be full of laughter and memories that I will again write in my diary.

Now, I suddenly regretted confessing to him. If only I could turn back time.

What should I do? What should I choose? Friendship or freedom?

If I will choose my freedom and just let my love be known to him, he will be indifferent to me. Worst case, he might ignore me and stop being his friend. But at least I will move on immediately. Free, and no kept feelings.

But if I will choose friendship, it would mean I will have to love him secretly, and just enjoy the moments while he treat you as a friend, cry inside while he is being sweet with his girlfriend, and will move on a little longer.

After deliberating over my dilemma, I made a choice...

Call me a martyr but, I'll choose friendship.

I'll just cherish those small moments with him than not at all...

Rain - the drama actress is on...

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"Ahahahaha," I suddenly laughed making it as natural as I can.

He looked at me puzzled. I looked at him and laughed more.

"Why?" he asked.

"You are so funny," I said, still laughing.

"What? What did I do?" His brows curled innocently.

"You are so gullible! You are so easy to trick!" I said and even slapped his shoulder.

"What?" He asked furiously.

"Remember what I said in the pool?"

"Oh!" he said making his eyes move uncomfortably.

"That was a joke!" I said then burst out laughing.

"Seriously?" he asked with disbelief.

"Yes! I didn't expect that you'd fall for it! I just want to know how you'd react to that and you really took it seriously."

"Seriously?" he asked the second time.

"Seriously serious!" I said.

"What the! Rain! I can't believe you tricked me like that! How could you?" He said pretending to be really wronged.

"I should be the one asking 'how could you'? You won't really talk to me if it were true. How could you? You are going to throw our friendship just like that? You are so bad," I pouted.

"It's not like that. I'm... actually happy about it," he said softly but I definitely heard him. My heart fluttered but I immediately killed it. He might have meant different from what I expect.

"What?" I asked him pretending I didn't hear want he said.

"Oh nothing. But don't you do that ever again. Okey?"

"Yeah Yeah!" I said while nodding my head.

"Come here you little!" he said then pulled me in his arms while ruining my hair. "I miss you! Didn't you realize how much you messed my day?"

I just laughed while saying sorry. After that brief embrace we looked at each other beaming. But there was something about the look in his eyes, like there were so many unsaid words.

Don't assume. Don't assume. Don't assume. I constantly reminded myself.

"And because of what you did, you have to help me," he said.

"What?"

"Help me on prepare my surprise for Dianne. It'll be her birthday in a few days."

"But I'll be busy the next days," I said. Why should I help him with Dianne? No way!

"Please! Please! I'm really not good at this kind of cheesy stuffs! Help me out!" he pleaded.

"Neither do I! You know that!"

"But you are creative! I know you'll figure something out! Please!" he said with those cute catlike eyes, the look I can't resist.

"Fine!" I said.

"Thanks!" he said. Then he place his head on my shoulder.

I looked outside the window and looked at the horizon.

I chose this so I must prepare myself...

To the bitterness of being in the friend zone...

<A/N> Hello everyone! Thank you for reading this story.

So, have you ever been to this kind of situation?

What would you choose? Love your friend secretly or tell him what you feel but the friendship won't be the same as before?

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