IZTIRAAR✔️

32.

Sidharth

"Shehnaaz kuch toh bol sweetheart", I whispered tensed when I felt her clutching my shirt but no words or even tears escaped her eyes. She was blank as if in a shock or something. Quite obvious for her but not for me. I know I'm angry from her but that doesn't mean what I feel for her would change.

"Shehnaaz, meri jaan", I spoke hoping for her to react but she just broke the hug and went in the balcony with her phone.
I let her for a few minutes because maybe she needs time to process it and I decided to deal with Nimisha for once and all maybe.

"Mil gaya jawaab Nimisha", I asked rather shouted but couldn't help it. Nimisha is getting on my nerves know.

" You really married her Sidharth " She asked and I could feel her voice breaking. I could feel how she is feeling because I have experienced it when Shehnaaz told me she loved Vedant but I don't know why my heart couldn't trust her emotions, not when she has broken it to an extent once.

" I did " I replied monotonously.

" Meri yaad nhi aayi " She asked at the verge of crying and Sidharth Sighed. Seeing someone like this wasn't what he could see so often.

" Nimi Stop Crying Yaar, You didn't loved me, Wait karta kya puri zindagi, I wanted someone joh mujhe utna pyaar kare jitna main usse karta hoon and Shehnaaz is the one I guess utna kafi hai tumhare liye " I spoke angry on her now, it's my life and I have a right to move on and Nimi needs to understand it.

" You loved me Sidharth.... You were begging that night to marry you, shaadi hone wali thi humari " She cried.

" Exactly I begged because meri Aadia ko zaroorat thi Nimi, she needed a mother at that time aur Humari Shaadi hone wali thi, Correct Wedding cards tak chap gaye the I agree But what you did was exactly what I never wanted in my wife, I thought I loved you but The feeling I have for Shehnaaz is what Love is " I spoke and she cried harder.

" Kyun Sidharth"

" The same way I asked you 5 years back Nimisha, You were the one who chose Your acting above me and our Love Nimi.... Love... Actually Infatuation it was " I spoke laughing slightly at the end.
"Because Love is what I feel for Shehnaaz, pta hai agar pyaar hota na I would have waited for you but guess what voh pyaar kabhi tha hi nhi, You have always been such Nimi, joh cheez nhi mili you have chased it to no end and the thing you got easily uski kabhi value ki hi nhi hai shayad hum dono ne " I added and looked at her who was still sobbing.

" Paani " I spoke forwarding a glass of water to her, no matter what she is my friend and would remain one till the end of my life, I may have never loved her but she was a great friend to me once if I actually forget what she did to me, but then if she wouldn't have done that... I might have never knew what true love is all about and thus there were no grudges for her in his life.

" Kyun karta hai itni care agar pyaar nhi hai toh, Accept it Sidharth pyaar toh aaj bhi karta hai mujhse Tu"

" Har dost se karta hoon Nimi, and in case Tu bhul gayi hai we were friends before we started dating, I guess sabke liye same karta "

" Mere aur Shehnaaz main koi farak nhi hai tere liye "

" Hai na! Bahut zyada hai in fact, you were just a friend, a teenage mistake may be but she is What life is to me, you were that self obsessed girl you know, jisko sirf apni hoti thi, nothing wrong you know, self obsessed har koi hota hai just the fact I wanted a mother to my Aadia that time not a wife for me which you failed to even realize, Jab we agreed for marriage na Nimi I had no idea I would get Aadia but I did, Destiny it was maybe but joh tune kiya na that is what led to this " I spoke and she stared me as if would kill me with just her looks.