Loving is such a weird human concept. You can either love someone or you can hate them.
There's no in-between except apathy and when you reach that level of indifference it means that you don't care.
I cared, I really cared about them. I cared about...
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𝐕𝐈𝐈 - Rain
I was watching a show wrapped in a blanket like when I was five. The girl on the TV had to choose what was more important for her.
Love or the life she always wanted to have.
That's an easy choice.
You can find love everywhere bitch, so leave him.
It's been twenty-four hours since I closed their apartment door, and I'm still not able to figure out if it was the right thing to do.
A part of me was trying to make me feel guilty and the other was convinced that I did nothing wrong.
"Hey, babe." Said Hailey as she sat at the table to eat the pancake I made for her. "Pancake on a Monday morning? I could get used to having you here."
I smile at her words, it's a pleasant feeling to have someone who's grateful for what you did. Mason didn't give any fucks back then, I can't even picture him thanking me for anything.
"Will you explain to me what happened?" She said narrowing her eyes at me.
Slowly, I closed the TV and sat next to her. I couldn't find a sentence that would perfectly describe what happened. "Well, Mason and I obviously broke up - "
"It's for the best, trust me." She said as she took another bite of her pancake.
"I guess it is, and-" How can I explain that my ex moved next to the apartment I'm supposed to live in, plus he's also the singer of the group that she loves so much.
"Finish that sentence." Hailey almost barked the words at me.
"It's a strange and completely foolish story." My eyes couldn't meet hers. I wanted to explain everything to Hailey, she's my friend, the only one I have here, but I just don't know if she'll be the same if I let her see me a little more.
"Have you ever loved more than one person at the same time?" I asked as I looked out the window. Today the sky was in dark shades of gray and the sun was gone. The news said that it'll probably rain today and tomorrow, so I need to get my coat to not be all wet from walking to my workplace.
"Yeah, and I've already fucked with more than one person at the same time." There was some kind of pride in her voice. She wetted her lips, probably with the memory. "And it was so fucking good - Wait, you fucked more than one person at the same time and didn't tell me?"
"Hailey, no- I just... I used to sing in a group." She rubbed her eyes, probably still a little sleepy.
"A group, like a band?"
I nod.
"Okay great, I mean you sing fucking great, but what's the link with what happened?"
"It matters more than you can even think. So back when I was seventeen I was singing in a group, I was dating the singer, Aaron."
