Expected Love

I can't let her go

Richard Anderson

It has been over 2 months to the day, When I made a decision of fighting for my love as I left Erna's door. Though I had made the decision, I could not make up enough courage to act on it.

I have ridiculed myself as a mere stalker, following her and keeping tabs on her activities so that I can at least get a glimpse of her. It made me realize one more thing, Liam truly loved her. The way he was with Lia showed how much he was in love with her.

I was in such a dilemma. I again doubted my decision. He loved her, I should just let them be. Lia was so happy with him. He made her so happy. Maybe that's my destiny, to be deprived of love from the one I love the most. My punishment for not valuing her when I could have had her easily.

A guilt always stayed with me. Guilt of not understand her, myself and guilt that I am trying to break their relationship.

Ugh! What the hell? If he loves her, then so do I, what matters now is that whom she loves.
I should go by my plan, fight for my love...yes...I...

There was a knock at the door that brought me back to my office. It must be Sofia...

"Come in." I grunted and Viktor came inside.

“Bro” I was astonished as he never comes to my office. He always calls me to his. He is changing, getting more used to moving around, coming out of the closet and being confident about facing the crowd. Yes love does that to you. It always brings out the best in you.

"Aren't you zoning out too much these days?"
Viktor asked, sitting on the edge of my table.

"I was just shocked to see you in my office."

"Hmm point accepted." He said, pressing his lips in a thin line.

"So, what brings you here?" I questioned.

"I need a few favors from you."

"Favors?"

"Yes, as we are nearing the wedding date...ahem. I want you to ....umm....
Book a yacht for 10 days."  My brows went up high in my forehead. I know what he wants the yacht for, but I can't miss the chance to tease him.

"Yacht? For what?" He gritted his teeth while I played the innocent card.

"For...I want to take Jia for a sail after the wedding...on the very same day." He blushed. This is interesting.

"You can't do that, you can't leave all the guests and sail away that too for 10 days? Who sails for 10 days? And what about work? You can't just go away for such a long period." I told him with a serious face.

"Ya...I...want to ...take her...for honeymoon..." He smiled.

"On a yacht?" I kept my act going. I wanted to laugh so badly.

"Umm ya..."

"Who does that?" I mocked.

"Are you questioning me, Richard Anderson?" You better do what you are asked to do. You got that" he growled.

“Yes” I raised my hands in surrender.

"And please take care of Jenny, she has been calling me continuously. You warn her or threaten her, I don't care, just get her off me before the wedding. I don't want Sunshine to worry about her." He groaned.

"Consider it done." I think she has surpassed the warning stage, now it's threatening time.

"Thank you so much, Mr. CEO for your support." He snickered and got up to leave.

"And ya, as I won't be there for a few days after the wedding, I want you to start preparing for Lia's wedding." My heart skipped a beat when he mentioned Lia's wedding.

"I want to do it on a huge scale, a grand wedding. Everything will be on us, so please take care of that as well. Ask Lia what kind of wedding she wants, talk to her, and gets things rolling by the time I come back.
I want to gift her a best wedding and honeymoon..." He continued, but that one word took me in the past.

Flashback

"What kind of wedding do you want and where you want to go for honeymoon?" Lia had asked me out of nowhere as we were sitting on the floor of our new office. We  must be of 21 at that time.

"I am not getting married. I don't have time" I admitted while scanning some documents.

"Come on Richie, you must have thought of something." She probed further.

"You seem to have thought about it already, so you tell me."

"Yes, I have already finalized everything. A winter beach wedding and honeymoon on a private island, where it will be just two of us."

"Hope you find someone to go with." I looked at her and smirked.

"Off course I will find someone and even if I don't I will take you" she claimed, throwing herself on me.

"Ewwww get away." I pushed her away from me. I crave that affection from her. What should I do to get my carefree Lia back in my arms? And this time I will hold her firm in my embrace.

"Richie Richard... RICHARD?" Viktor was shaking me to get my attention.

HUH?...Umm...ya? I blurted. My eyes must have gone moist because bro was looking at me with concern.

"What's wrong with you, buddy. Why have you been so distant. Is everything okay? Talk to me. Tell me my boy." He rubbed my back, standing close to me. I hugged him.

"L..Lia...I...love her." I whined. I was almost on the verge of sobbing. It was getting unbearable to hold up everything in my heart. I wanted to share it with him. He was always there to support me and I hope he does again this time, too.

"Oh! Richie, why? Why now? She was waiting for you so long and now that she has moved on... don't do this to her, to yourself. Don't complicate things further. She has chosen someone else and is happy with him. Let her go." He sighed, patting my back

I can't let her go? I just can't, not before trying my best.