Effulgent

Chapter 9

TRIS POV

I just got back from Candor. I didn't even bother to bring or tell Tobias that I'm going back because he wouldn't even want to listen to me. I don't go to the dormitory or cafeteria because I know Christina and Will would be there and they would bombard me with question about Tobias and me. I'm not in the mood to deal with any of that. I'll only end up snapping at them. I go to the chasm. The place where my first kiss took place. I go sit at the exact same spot.I just feel so silly and worthless right now. Sometimes I wonder, why did Tobias choose to be with me if he found me annoying. Is that conversation we had about my fear a lie? Oh, I'll never get the answer. I get up and start walking. That's when something pops up into my head. Jobs. I have to choose my jobs here.

I wonder if there are any faction ambassador positions. I'd love that. Or I would love training initiates. But that would mean I would have to see Tobias everyday. Or wait, should I call him Four, now? I'm not good enough for him. I'm small and as pale as a vampire and in addition to the list, I'm annoying. Who would want someone like me? That thought makes tears well up in my eyes and flow freely down my cheeks.

"All initiates please come down to the Pit for your job choosing ceremony, I repeat, all initiates please come down to the Pit for your job choosing ceremony." A speaker I didn't know was there somewhere cracks to life.

I wipe my face and head towards the Pit. I don't what I'm going to choose.

Ambassador or initiate instructor?

I know there are no dialouges in this chapter. It's just Tris thinking to herself. :)