this is how you fall in love// jung wooyoung

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Chapter 10

[Flashback]

"No, mom, stop!!" I'm screaming. My voice echoed through the streets then, and it echoes in my head now. I just want my memories to disappear, and my tears to stop to flow. I hate them.

Lora

It's been three weeks since Wooyoung and I got into an argument again. I guess it can be said that it's been three weeks and that we broke off our fake relationship. At least that's what everyone thinks, because from that moment on, Wooyoung and Emily are together again. He got what he asked for, and I ... well you can say that people are still talking about me. That I was a replacement for Emily and a short-lived distraction. They were not wrong.

My panic attacks haven’t subsided since the day Emily told me everything in my face. They are not everyday, but they happen to me. Nightmares are present again and every night I pray that Dad didn't hear me.

I'm sitting in the school cafeteria with Jenny. She came back two weeks ago, and she is still mad at me for not telling her anything. If she only knew the truth, she would be grateful to me for keeping quiet about it.

She kept telling me how she knew Wooyoung was in love with me. Even when she told me he was looking at me during lunch, and when I didn't believe her. She claims that he is still in love with me. I don't know what to believe anymore.

Although she doesn't know the whole truth, she knows what happened and that I have panic attacks again. I had to tell her that, because it happened to me again that I got sick at school. I just asked her not to say anything to Dad and San for now. She agreed, but barely.

"Are you feeling okay today?" she asks me, who knows how many times today.

"I'm okay Jenny. Don't worry. Have you heard from your parents? How is your grandmother?" I ask.

"Her condition is the same ... nothing has changed for weeks." she answered.

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It's the last class today and I can't wait for it to end. For two reasons. First,  to get on the bus, because I no longer have personal driver, second, Emily and Wooyoung have this class with me and I don’t want to spend another second with them in the same room.

But my hopes fall into the water when professor Kang calls out my name, along with Emily and Wooyoung.

"The three of you are in detention after this class. None of you have a homework. Again. Of the two of you, that doesn't surprise me, but Miss Choi, your absence from my class offends me greatly. You even ran away from my class a couple of times." this is getting worse and worse. I've never been in a detention before. It happened to me for the first time that I didn't do my homework in literature. I love this subject.

"But professor Kang.." Emily tried to say something, but he cuts her off.

"There is no BUT miss Lee, I expect you after this class." At that moment, the end of the class bell rang, and I saw Emily take Wooyoung's hand in hers and go outside. I don't think I can handle one more class with them... i hate that they came back to each other.

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"Miss Choi what is happening with you? You never skipped homework in literature, and you never ran away from class. Is everything alright?" mister Kang asks me and I don't know what to tell him. That I'm in love with that boy next to me, but he loves the girl next to him and everything is complicated? Plus i have my panic attacks again, because of that girl? That sounds awful.. and it's not an excuse.

"Is your health okay? Are things from a year ago happening again? Should I call your father?" when he asked that, I panic. My Dad can't find out.

"No, mister Kang! I'm okay. Everything is fine, my health is fine. I'm fine. I just got lazy, that's all. It will not happen again." my health condition at school is not unknown. Professor Kang, he was there many times when something like that happened and he helped San, and then they would call my father.