this is how you fall in love// jung wooyoung

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Chapter 9

Wooyoung

It's almost half past two in the morning, while I watch her face, as she sleeps. Her dream does not seem at all peaceful and she is fidgeting all the time. That's why I'm awake. Her pushing woke me up, but I still hold her in my arms. She is still in my embrace.

Her long red hair is everywhere on the pillow, wet with sweat again. I have the impression that she is struggling in her sleep. I am tempted to wake her up. But I don't do that.

When I close my eyes again, trying to fall asleep, I feel like she is no longer in my arms and I hear a scream. Then I open my eyes and see her sitting on the bed, trying to catch her breath. Tears well up in her face.

"No, mom, stop!" that's what she said.

"Hey, hey, I'm here, don't worry, it was just a nightmare." at least I think it was. Today she said that the pictures would haunt her in her sleep, whatever it was, I hope it wasn't real. I hugged her again and heard her heavy breathing. Does she have panic attacks?

"Lora are you okay?" I ask her, because i'm not sure. Even though she's San's sister, I hardly know anything about her. Because of San, I didn't try very hard to get closer to her and find out. And San didn't talk about family problems either, not much. Only the surface part.

"I had flashbacks of memories in my sleep again. I'm fine, but I can barely breathe. I'm sorry, I didn't bring the medicine, I didn't think I would need it anymore." she tries to calm herself first, then me. Surely she sees how worried the look on my face is. I've never seen her like this. And drugs? I didn't know she was taking any medication.

I decide not to ask her anything about it now, not wanting to upset her, more than she is. I turn her even more towards me.

"Look, I'm here. Everything will be fine. Try to lie down again and fall asleep." she nodded, then lay down next to me again. and I lay down next to her again. Her breathing is a little slower, but she still can't breathe enough. I see hef struggling. A tear slid down her face again.

"I'm sorry, but when it comes to this I can't control it. Emotions, tears, nothing. I'm just like this. Broken.. I'm so sorry you had to see this. This whole day.." I interrupted her in half a sentence, putting my finger to her lips. They are so soft and wet from tears.

"Shhhhh, don't say anything more. Try to fall asleep and calm down. Do not apologize. I want to know, but I also want you to be well. So take a break now, and one day you'll tell me everything." although I want to know what's going on, I don't want to force her to talk about it if she's not ready, because she doesn't seem ready.

I caress her face, until she finally closes her eyes and I'm sure she's asleep.

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Lora

I wake up feeling warm arms around my stomach. I open my eyes slowly, and see Wooyoung's face opposite of mine. He looks so calm and serene as he sleeps. His arms are around me and keep me warm all the time. I smile at that thought. How he was with me yesterday, while everything was happening ... how he calmed me down. As he said he wants to know and will always be there. It was so nice to hear that.

As I watch him sleep, as strands of hair fall across his face, my heart begins to beat rapidly. But then I remember that I can't afford to fall in love with him again. He loves Emily. He said he wanted her back. To be with her again. The picture of my feelings towards him does not fit in at all.

Then he opened his eyes, and my cheeks reddened, when I realized he had caught me staring at him.

"Good morning, are you feeling better?" he ask, with husky morning voice. I get chills from this whole scene. I hope he doesn't notice.