Feelings ....🤐

MY YOUNGER SELF ???

Lucifer and maze are still just looking at each other and I can clearly see there tryna do something Lucifer looks at me and of course used " DID MY FATHER SEND YOU" you can hear his British accent come out as he says that

Lexi : WHOS YOUR FATHER I DONT KNOW YOUR FATHER WHAT DO YOU MEAN ?????

Maze: uhm Lexi can I see your wrist ?

Lexi: sure

Maze grabs your left arm a little rough but as soon as she looks at my wrist she gives a face that full of confusion

Maze : I don't- I don't understand you don't have it

Lucifer : OH FOR DADS SAKE OF COURSE SHE DOESN'T I wasted my time for this I should be at Linda's right now why did I even believe you don't EVEN HAVE A SOUL

Lucifer says as he storms off and leaves to Linda's as you look at maze you can see she got her feelings hurt when Lucifer said that last part about her she sits down next to you with a bottle of vodka and starts to drink it

I was gonna stand up and leave because I didn't know what to do
But I heard maze mumble I'm sorry
I said "for what you didn't do anything bad "

Maze : I made Lucifer think u were a demon a monster like me she had a face of disappointment and guilt

Lexi: maze don't -

Before I could finish she stood up and took one more last sip of vodka and put the bottle down but she did it a little aggressively and it made the glass table break into pieces she took a look at the table and got even more mad and left I was sitting on the couch and had a bunch of thoughts take over me

but then I felt wind on my back and felt like someone was behind me so I picked up a sharp piece of glass from the broken table and turned around and hold it to the persons neck before they could even say a word but then I quickly realized it was Amenadiel and I immediately dropped the glass piece and said sorry to him and he was shocked on what just happened and then I was about say sorry again and then he said " it's okay my child accidents happen and I should have not stand behind you like that I should have thought it would scare you But how did you feel that I was behind-

Lexi ; UHM I - I - I need to go

I left as soon as he was about to ask me that but the scary part was I don't know but the way he looked me in my eyes and said "it's okay my child accidents happen " it felt like a safe place but I don't trust those ever since well my whole life I mean how am I supposed to trust a stranger if I can't trust my mom -

then I was headed home it was 11 pm and it was quit in my room I put headphones in listening to some music but the voice would stop talking to me so I got a pill in my back pack and waited for it to hit but the voice didn't go away so I got other one and waited but nothing the voice just wouldn't leave me alone

So after a whole I got the whole bottle and we'll took all the pills and Well that didn't work earthier at this point I couldn't do anything else but listen to the voice in my head talk to me and it said some things that I guess kinda made sense but I tried to ignored it but it said some things that sounded real
But then it slowly said " check your wr- "
The voice stopped and I tried to talk to it but
It wouldn't come back the rest of the night I tried everything to make it talk or even say or whisper something but nothing so I went into the living room and it was a movie on and slowly I felt tears falling down my cheeks because I realized I saw a scene on the tv were the mom was hugging his son and I wished I was that kid and the mom was my mom

The truth is my mom does spoil me with a bunch of gifts for Christmas and my birthday
but gifts don't compare to a parents
love/attention I'm the black sheep of the family my mom always travels with my step dad and my step siblings but she doesn't care about me as a mother because she hates my dad and she takes it out on me

As I had tears falling down my eyes I kept looking at the screen I paused it at the son and mom and I slowly fall asleep on the couch

Lucifer pov

I came back to lux late at like 2 am thinking maze and Lexi was still there but when I came back all I noticed was-a empty house and the table was broken into pieces maybe maze got mad at Lexi and they had fight. So I went to check the places Lexi mostly goes to first the skate park then the park and. Then this little hangout spot and lastly I was on my way to her house
As I was on the way to her house I realized maybe what Linda said about my feelings for her is true maybe I do see my younger self in her that's why I'm so nice to her I mean I hate kids but not her -

I was in-front of her house but I didn't wanna open the door so I slowly climbed through the window in her room and she wasn't there witch I got worried but then I saw the tv on in the living room and I walked in and saw her sleeping on the couch and I saw tears on her face but then I realized what the scene was on the tv and I quickly did realize that what Linda said is TRUE I DO SEE MY YOUNGER SELF IN HER

"oh my sweet child
goodnight "

That's the last thing I said to her then I left

OMGGGG this is the most beautiful but meaningful page I everrr wrote also if you need anyone to talk to dm me 💛💛 also thank you so much for the reads and also this chapter hits close to me so sorry if it bad I just let my feelings out in this one page but let me know if I should delete or not 🖤🖤