Just killing time

Chapter 8

In the morning, I woke up to see Dolan's face very close to mine. He was still sleeping I guessed. His face had the most innocent features on them, he looked like an angel.

While I was admiring the beautiful features of his face, his hand suddenly cupped my face and his eyes slightly opened.
"Good morning," I whispered.
"Good morning, Diana." He whispered back.
He stroke away the hair that was covering my eyes and said: "ready for a new fresh day?"
"Yup." I said popping the "P". Today we are going to an amusement park and I'm so excited since I haven't gone out with my brother lately. It would be cool right ?! And also having fun was one of the ways to move on and forget about Kim.
"Okay then, let's go have breakfast," he said as he sat on the bed straight and stretched his arms.
"Okay," I agreed .

We both got out of bed and went to the kitchen to make breakfast.
"Where are mom and dad?" I said while grabbing the milk out of the refrigerator.
"They are on a business trip right now, they will be back after one week."
"Aha," it's so weird that they didn't tell me. But it's fine since Dolan is here.
Dolan made pancakes and I just poured us some Nescafé and cut some fruits. We ate and then each of us went to socialize on the internet.

I entered my room and grabbed my iPad when I saw a message from Will saying that he wants to meet me today. But I can't meet up with him today because I had plans with Dolan. I pressed on the keyboard but still didn't know what to answer. I mean he really cared about me and he tried to comfort me and all these things so I can't just shut him down. And as I thought about telling Dolan about Will and if he can join us today he suddenly knocked the door and made his way to the room.
"Just in time." I said.
"What is it?" He asked.
"I have this friend, his name is Will and he actually cares about me and wants me to meet up with him."
"And?"
I took a deep breath "Can he come with us? " I finally asked. For a fact I wanted to go with Dolan alone but I can't keep Will waiting like that coz he asked me to go out with him like friends since weeks but I was always busy. Busy trying to get over Kim.
"Okay, I guess. It would be nice to get to know one of your friends." He said as he rubbed the back of his neck.
"Thanks. I guess he would love to know you too," I smiled.
"Yeah, okay. Before I forget, get ready at 3 o'clock."
"Roger that." I said.
He got out of the room and closed the door.

Kim's point of view:

After I had my breakfast I sat on the couch in the living room. I turned on my speakers and inserted the flash in. No one was home so I raised the music full blast.

I couldn't concentrate in the lyrics of any sort of song. I was distracted by one thing, one person "Diana". I replayed every single moment we had together, the happy and the sad moments. I remembered her telling me that she cares about me, I remembered how she hugged me when I was broken. I thought about how empty I was when she wasn't talking to me, there was always something wrong in the last 3 weeks. I tried dating girls but it felt so boring and I couldn't forget her. And last but not least I was thinking about yesterday and how she screamed at me telling me that she hates me. Her words got into me like knives. It's true I'm the one who started this but I didn't know it would hurt like that hearing her say that she hates me. All what I did to her was wrong. I wasn't that sort of guy who would break a girl's heart but why? Why did I do this to her? How did I have this courage to say such mean things to her?

I realized I needed to say sorry, I needed to apologize. But how can I even talk to her now? I can't call her coz I'm sure that she won't answer. And even if I texted her, she won't reply.

I got off the couch and turned off the music then walked to my room. A sudden idea flashed into my head. I knew that Will was going to a park with her this afternoon so maybe I should go and meet her there. Yes! That's exactly what I needed! To meet her!

At 5 o'clock I took a cold shower, wore my clothes and headed to "The waterfall park". When I reached there,I found tons of people crowded on every game. I wondered if I could find her out of all these people.

I looked for her everywhere, she wasn't found anywhere. And Will, well he wasn't found either. I spent 2 hours looking for them until my legs started to hurt badly making me feel hopeless. Like seriously who would find a person in such a crowded park! And guess what! On a holiday!

I sat on one of the benches that was overlooking on a beautiful lake. There were so many awesome ducks swimming in it. And I saw a lot of small kids playing and running all around the place. I looked around me to find everyone talking, everybody walking in groups, a lot of couples exchanging love words and I'm just sitting on a bench like a lonely dog.

While I was taken to another imaginary world, I heard the name of Diana being said. I stood up and looked around, trying to find who said her name. I saw a guy with an incredible body structure, he had the best muscles I have ever seen, he had blonde hair and and an amazing blue eyes. He was standing in front of me and taking to someone on the phone.

After he closed the phone he called out "Diana " and as he walked to meet this Diana, I followed him. And he was standing next to the Diana I know. Next to Diana Compton. It can't be! Could he be her boyfriend? I needed to figure out.

As I got closer to them, Will was standing with them too. And as they talked I found that the awesome guy was her brother and that he was about to leave for a surprise birthday party or something. 2 minutes passed and then her brother left, she was standing with Will and they were enjoying their time.

I stood looking at how they were laughing together, how close they were and how their eyes shined as they talked. I stood looking at Diana, the beautiful girl who was heartbroken by me. The sweet, shy girl who cried because of me. I missed to see her smile, her laugh and her weird jokes.

Suddenly they stopped laughing and Will looked at her in a serious way.
"Diana, there is something I need to tell you, something that is so important to me." He said placing his hands on her shoulders.
"Yes, what is it?" She asked.
"I- I lo-" he couldn't complete coz I stood in and grabbed her to my chest. I knew what he was going to say. What he was going to confess. Will loved Diana and everybody could see it in his eyes. I know she may like him too but as he was about to confess to her, I thought of her being taken away from me.( She will be his !)That sentence gave me a shiver and made me realize that I loved her, yes I did. She couldn't leave my mind because I missed her. She was the person who lights up my day, the person who I can always rely on, she was the best . How stupid I was?! How couldn't I have realized it before?!

"I want her back." I said to Will. "I am taking her back. I will never give her to anyone again. She is mine."
Diana tried to pull away from me but she couldn't "WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? WHY ARE YOU HERE? WHY DO YOU HAVE TO SHOW UP AND RUIN MY DAY? HAVEN'T YOU HAD ENOUGH? JUST LET GO OF ME!! LEAVE ME ALONE, GET OUT OF MY LIFE!! " She cried out struggling to break free.
I looked into her eyes who were fearing me, they were asking me to leave but I went straight and told her "No, I will never leave you again. I am so sorry, I was such a fu*king idiot for doing what I did. You didn't do anything wrong, it was all me. I was rude and mean and I made you cry. I am so sorry. Please forgive me."
"Saying sorry to me after all what you did?! That's so weird. Is this some sort of a new lesson from you? Coz I don't want it. KEEP YOUR LESSONS TO YOURSELF KIM!!" She grumbled and slipped out of my grip.

She wanted to slap me but I stopped her hand by gripping it and hugging her so tight. She tried to resist but I was holding her so firmly. "I was wrong, and I apologies. I was stupid, crazy and I was a jerk, I know. This isn't a lesson and it will never be. It is just that I missed you, I missed you so so much. I felt empty without you. I was nothing without you. You are my everything. You're my sunshine, my best friend, my princess, my lollipop, my everything." I cupped her face with my hands as she stopped moving and completed "the reason why I'm telling you this is that I love you. I love you Diana perfect Compton."