Just killing time

Chapter 13

Chilling in the bedroom while listening to music is one of my favorite parts of the day and especially when the song that's playing is Austin's song "Places". Just PER-FECT.

"Diana!! Sweetie!!" Mom called. Somebody always has to break these beautiful moments.
"Coming mom," I answered. I exited the room toward the kitchen. Mom then made me help her with baking a cake and washing the dishes.

"Finally done," I exhaled. "Mom. I'm going to sleep, do you need anything?" I asked giving her the tone that says (mom I wanna relax so please stop asking me for help). She looked around and then said "no honey, thank you." She smiled.
"You're welcome mom." I smiled back." Goodnight." I kissed her cheek. "Goodnight," she replied.

I walked to my room, entered and locked the door behind me. Suddenly there was a knock on the window, I didn't give it much attention, I mean it was probably a tree branch hitting on the window. A moment passed and then my phone buzzed. I checked the whats app and found 3 messages from Kim telling me to open the window. I totally forgot about him telling me that he will sneak in tonight. Oh yes, we were going to watch a movie, talk and maybe play a video game.

I opened the window, popped my head out and looked down where I saw him standing, but his head was down and something in the air felt different.
"Kim is that you?" I asked my voice loudly enough for him to hear.
"Can y-you come d-down please?" He said stuttering after each word.
"Okay, but will you catch me?" I asked.
"Yes." That was the only word he said, no chuckling of how my voice sounded, no teasing me about how I asked him, no, it was only a yes.

I got out from the window, walked slowly, almost tip toeing to reach the tree. I felt scared, this was my first time walking out of the house in such a way. It felt so scary my legs were shaking and by heart was beating rapidly in my chest. I started climbing down the tree and then jumping into Kim's opened arms.

Kim hugged me tightly, as if he was never going to let go of me. I felt his warm breath brushing against my hair, his heart beating like a racing car, and a sad feeling overwhelming me. It wasn't me who was sad, it was him, I felt it, my heart felt it.

"Kim? Kim, are you okay?" I asked my voice filled with worry, I tried to pull away from him but instead of him pulling away too he hugged me even tighter. "Please don't go. Please don't leave me. I don't want to lose you. I can't take it anymore, I can't loose you too. You're the only one I love, I won't live if you leave me too. I need you, don't go, please," he said sobbingly. I don't get it, what does he mean? Who said I will leave him? Why is he crying? Why is he in pain? What happened to make him that sad? Who left him before? Why does my heart ache like its being stabbed every time he says a word?

"I will never leave you, and I will never let go of you too." I said trying to calm him down. "But why are you crying? What happened?" I hugged him as tightly as I can.
"I saw it, you went and left me. I was all alone again. You died in front of me just like she died. I can't watch you die, I can't stand it. I want you to always be with me, I don't want to be alone. I don't want," he cried out.

He put me at arm length looking at me with a very red ,puffy eyes. I looked at him with a shock on my face of how sad he looked. I felt it, he was broken, he looked doleful, wailful and drowning in sadness . I've never seen him in such a depressed, cracked state. It was tearing me apart seeing him like this, it was awful.

"You won't have to be alone coz I will always be there for you. See, I am still alive and as long as I am alive, as long as I can breath I will always be with you," I said my eyes piercing his baby blue eyes.

A minute or two passed and he was finally calm. "Why don't we go to my room now?" I asked.
He looked at me and answered "can we go to mine instead ?"
"Okay, I guess." I said still thinking about what he just said.