ADOPTED BY BILLIE EILISH

7) attitude

Kira's pov

I was on my phone when Billie came into my room.
„Ever heard something from knocking?"-kira
Like bro why couldn't she just fucking knock? It takes like 2 seconds.

Billie didn't respond and just sat at the end of my bed.

„We're going to my brothers house and you'll be coming with me. We have to finish some music"
-billie

„Why do i have to come along? Like wtf am I supposed to do there?"-kira

„KIRA. Stop cursing! And i don't know you can either come with me in the studio or you'll go to your cousin"-billie

I rolled my eyes „yeah okay"-kira

„We'll leave in about an hour"-billie

I nodded and she left again. Now you may be wondering why I'm so pissed and got an attitude? Well i honestly don't know. Everything is just taking a lot of my nerves recently.

I can't really explain it, but i guess just everything's been a little too much for my brain. Almost immediately after I let my anger out on other people I regret it and feel so bad but it's like i can't control it

Billie doesn't know that my brain is like that and that I don't do it on purpose. I know that it somehow hurts her because she doesn't really do anything but like i said i can't control it.

„Kira? Kiraaaa? Kira stop thinking"-billie

I snapped back out of my thoughts.

„Huh?"-kira
„We have to go come on"- billie

I nodded and got up. We got in the car and drove to Finneas' and Claudias house. When we arrived I went with Billie in the studio since i didn't really wanted to interact with anyone.

Finneas and Billie started writing and discussing songs while i sat on the couch feeling the sleep take over me. Finneas typed something on the computer when Billie leaned to my ear and whispered

„You can sleep if you want it's okay"- billie

and smiled. i decided to do exactly that and closed my eyes...

Billies pov
I felt Kira relax and soon she was dead asleep.
I smiled to myself and continued to do my work.
After a while we finished everything but Kira was still sleeping so we put her in the guest bedroom

I didn't wanted to wake her up so i went back downstairs to where claudia and fin were making dinner. I sat down on the barstool at the kitchen island.

„So how's it going with Kira?"-Claudia asked

I thought about it for some moments

„Hard. Very very hard. Not in an rude way, really. I love her more than anything and I wouldn't put her back to the adoption center but lately she's been catching such an attitude. Yeah i know she's a teenager but still... i try my best to ignore her outbursts but I'm very worried about her mental health..."-billie

The next part i whispered...

„she cuts..."-billie

Both of them looked at me with an disbelieving face.

„And some day ago, i think 2 or so, she came into my room and just stood there and she said she wasn't okay so i wanted to lay her on the bed so we can talk and she started having a panic attack "-billie

We continued to talk about Kira, not in a bad way of course, and eventually they finished making dinner so I called Kira downstairs. I told Finneas and Claudia about her eating disorder of course.

To my suprise, kira was already up, well not up but it seemed like she was just waking up. We talked a little and went downstairs. Maya was also here and i hugged her and we sat down.

Claudia didn't put a lot on Kira's plate on purpose, so she won't feel stressed and uncomfortable about it. Kira was always scared that if they knew, they would judge her or anything..

But I think she doesn't fully know yet that I was once in the same position like her. Not wanting to eat, not wanting to get out of my room, this makes me seriously worried about her.

Maya, my niece, didn't talk about it. She's very opened about those things and doesn't judge others for their problems which obviously is important to all of us. She also didn't look at Kira weirdly.

I'll try and get Kira to talk to Maya, maybe even exchange numbers. I think it's important in your teenage years that you have somebody your same age to talk about some teen stuff

When we finished eating i helped them to clean up and i noticed from the corner of my eye that Maya and Kira were going upstairs, probably in May's room which plastered a smile on my face.

[may=maya]

When we all finished and had some good laughs we headed back home. Kira straight went to bed, she was exhausted, which I can understand.

„Good night mom—uhhhh billie"-kira

I smiled „good night angel" i said and kissed her head. She went to bed just like me....