Always Here | Jennie×FemReader (Completed)

Part - 20

Y/N

"Let's end our relationship here! Jennie said and I was lost

"what?" I asked, slowly letting go of my embrace with her.

"you heard me, don't make me say it twice" she said and it was like my mind was stripped off of any thing that I could say

"please say something" Jennie pleaded

"why?" I asked her and she remained silent

"why?!" I repeated again this time more harsher

"because I don't love you anymore!" she shouted at me, breaking my heart into pieces

"you don't mean that, please look at me in my eyes and tell me that again" I asked her

she closed her eyes for a second before connecting it with mine

"I don't love you anymore Y/n" she said to me, starring straight into my eyes

And that was when I realized that I'm making it harder for her

Maybe we were just too fast at everything that I did not realized that

I was slowly suffocating her my tears started to cascade down my face

I'll let go this time but I'll promise that I will return

A person who is worthy enough of her love

Because this time I lost

"okay" I said as I slowly got up from the bed

"I love you" I said as I gave her temple a long kiss while she closes her eyes

When I pulled away that was when I noticed that she too was

Crying but I don't want to comfort her while I was broken too

And with that turned my back against her and proceeded to the door

When I was outside her penthouse that was the only time that I've noticed that it was crying

Was the sky grieving for me too?

I walked with the rain

I was numb enough to feel that I was already shivering from the cold

I was numb enough that my clothes was completely drenched

I started my bike and drove with the rain, as I was thinking that it too was crying with me

I loved her.

No.

I love her

And think I would never stop

JENNIE

Y/n left and when I looked at her

when I said that I don't love her anymore she looked so lost and it broke me too

I hate seeing Y/n being broken but I did that to her

but I just wanted to protect her, of course I love Y/n she was my everything

But I wanted her to move on, forget about me and be happy while I'll be back in my real life, life of hell.

Lisa once gave me a hope that I'll be able to exit that place but my hope is gone now, all broken because of me

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2 weeks have past since I broke up with Y/n but everyday i was hurting more and more

I hate it that I cannot do anything about it as someone was holding an upper hand which I would not want to admit

nini, have you eaten your lunch?
I miss you
come back to me, I love you

My phone vibrated with Y/n's text, everyday since the past 2 weeks she's been texting me, waiting for me until it's time to go home, trying to get inside my office, trying to enter my house

But I shut all of it, it will be hard but it will be easier as time passes by for her but not for me and for the past two weeks, I've been ignoring her messages,

Passing through another way just so that I could not meet her, asked Jisoo to never let Y/n enter my office and changing the pass for my house so she could not enter

it was hard, there were times where I wanted to just destroy that wall that I've built between Y/n and me and just let her in

but this was all for her, for her safety and I cannot risk anything that could potentially harm her

I love her that much and even more than that

"hi" Jisoo said as she entered my office

It was pass 5 now so it was time to go home

"is Y/n waiting again?" I asked her

"no" she answered and even though it was hard to admit it did hurt me that she was not waiting anymore

But I looked on the brighter side and thought that she was taking small steps to moving on already

"But Rosé wanted to talk to you" she said and as if on cue Rosé entered my office

"Hi Jennie" she said and she looked at Jisoo and that was when Jisoo took her steps out of the office.

"hi" | greeted her back awkwardly

I've made friends with her but now that Y/n is out, I don't know what will happen

"can we talk?" she asked

"we're talking already" I tried to lighten the mood and thankfully she smiled a little with that

"how's Y/n?" I asked not being able to ask her those question that has been bugging my mind

"getting worse and worse everyday" she said and I was feeling guilty

"Is it true?" she asked me and to continue

I looked at her waiting for her

"that you don't love her anymore?" and that was when I removed my eye contact with her I was just silent

"you love her still" Rosé said and I cannot look up still

"she's getting more miserable as day passes by Jennie"

"she'll be okay soon" I said to her but she was not buying it

"I know Y/n, and think she won't be" she said

"she's just so in love with you Jennie

"but i can't" I said to her

"what's stopping you?" Rosé asked me but just shut my mouth

but I know the answer

Her Y/n is the answer to Rose's question

I cannot bare to see her dying because of me, I cannot see her in that state

I let go because I'm scared for her

I let go because I love her

"both of you are suffering Jennie, and trust me when I say Y/n won't be okay anytime soon" Rosé said as she stood up and walked away

I'll hold on that I'll be ignoring Y/n as long as can because

she doesn't deserve the life that I have she doesn't deserve to be trapped in a world full of judgements and criticism

because Y/n deserves everything more than best and I'm not the best for her

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