[C] 12th October

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Suggested music : Perfect - Ali Gatie

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If only I knew it will end like this,
I'd write down every single moment of us
Since the day one we knew each other.

If only I knew it will end like this,
I'd embrace every single moment of us
Embracing your soul, with my deepest heart.

If only I knew it will end like this,
I'd never let us breaking up the dance
Until the sun sets again.

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And thats it for our story. Since then I never heard about him anymore. I promised myself to move on and live my life after I finish writing this. Yes, its based on a real story.

This whole book is about how the main protagonist realized she liked the guy who liked her first, too. Basically, this story is her thoughts and flashbacks of every moment they both had together before and how she now realized and reflected herself back in each moment shared with him when he was gone now. How she hated the way she was dumb for not realizing she liked him back at the spot on when he showed signs that he actually liked her. But now it is too late to realize. They did have a chance to know that they loved each other but it would be better if they were on the same page since Day 1. And yes it's written in Rose's POV.

'He fell for her, she fell even harder'

I wrote it here because I had no one to pour it to, and I realized I needed to move on. So, I took one last chance to write and talk about him before I leave our stories in my mind for next thousand years. I promised myself I will heal and mind my own life after I finished writing this :) which I will try...my best to fulfill this promise though it hurts 🥲. This is one of the reasons why I updated late, I didn't want to quicken the process of finishing this story which means I will need to push myself to move on that quick too while I am still not able to. My heart still goes on.

Anyway,

Thank you a lot for reading this whole story! I know it sounded cringe and awkward at some parts but honestly the real conversations were not that awkward. I just cropped some shits from the real one.;'sndnsn (sorry this is random keyboard smash :>)

And,

To Jack, if you read this one day, just know that I have never forgotten you. And you will remain in my deepest heart as my first love (I know this sounded cringe since we were just online but he made me feel wayyyy in love better than other guys ever did). I loved you, and now I will miss you. You are a great person, you made me laugh and so on, when we were together. Jack who i know, was a great elder brother to his siblings. He was amazing at cooking soup. He was amazing at art, taking a good care of his siblings even though he was in not so good condition. Everyone who knows you through your lifetime would be so pleased to be around you, Jack. Everyone actually loves you. I am one of them. I have no idea where are you now, whether we are still looking at the same sky or you are just in different universe now, I really hope you are doing good where ever you are. Rest well, you have been fighting so long. You did great.

Jack, if you read this one day, please text me over. I would love to know how you are doing currently. Also, please know that I will never forget you. Please know that you are an amazing person.

Love,
Your forever Rose :') ♡

The end