| Solace |

3 | Unexpected encounter|

—T E J A S S W I—

So the shooting starts tomorrow, I still have today to clear my mind and try to be professional at all cost.

I'm not going down that path again, it still hurts but now it's finally time to move on and burry those grudges deep within.

The shooting will be for four months or might be streched a little longer, so I just have to be compose and act like I don't care, which I don't.

I am doing this show 'cause I want people to see the performer within me, they have seen how I am as a person now it's time to show them how I am as a performer.

I am on my way to a restaurant as Aneri and I are going to meet there, I feel really unproductive today, which is happening often these days and I absolutely don't like it at all.

Aneri and I have decided to hang out throughout the day as we both will be busy with our projects later on, I'm really indebted to her as she was my constant support in these past few months, she tried her best to make me feel happy and would drag me out of the house so that I wouldn't sink in my thoughts.

I love her would be an understatement.

I reached the restaurant and parked my car, as I step out I am baffled to see an abundance of paparazzi.

Shit.

What the fuck are they doing here and how in the world do they know that I will be here.

I hate being surrounded by people, specifically paparazzi, it makes me anxious and nervous, I feel like they invade my privacy.

I know that I am a television personality and media helps in hyping up our career, but they do invade our privacy, every single thing gets out and everyone judges even the smallest of gestures. I have experienced it better then everyone once I was out of the bigg boss house.

I always feel bare, as if they can see everything, people assume that they know everything about us when in reality they don't even know what problems we do face in our life on everyday basis. They think as if our life is some fairytale, perfect to no end.

I steadily walk towards the entrance of the restaurant, trying to calm my breathing.

I hope they won't notice me. I hope.

There are so many reports, trying to barge in the restaurant. I think they aren't here for me.

I tried to make my way inside the restaurant without gaining much attention from the media but I miserably failed.

As soon as they saw me, they started clicking pictures, camera's so close to my face that it freaks me out, my heart starts thumping loudly against my chest.

Flashes from camera blinding my vision for few seconds, I was trapped between them, it feels so suffocating, my head feels light, It feels like everything is spinning around me, I tried making my way inside but I failed.

"Mam, are you meeting Karan sir here?"

"Why didn't you guys come together?"

"How do you feel working with him?"

"Is everything all right between you both?"

"Are you both back together?"

They started questioning me about Karan, I feared this thing the most when I signed the project, me and Karan working together would bring a lot of media attention which would be great for the project but it would mess my mental health really bad.

"Can you please excuse me" I plead. I feel breathless.

My vision getting blur with every 'clicking' sound, my head spinning, my heart pounding and my palms sweating.