I've been gone from the house for about an hour now. I turned off my phone so they wouldn't text me and change my mind. I wanted to stay away. Forever.
I bet I was already causing them enough pain. It would just be best if I left them alone. There was one person I wanted to see right now and that person was Ashton. He always gives the best advice. But I knew if I went over there Calum would get mad.
I decided to turn my phone on cause it's not like I can go back. I have no idea were I'm at honestly.
'Cassie come back!'
'Were crying. No joke.'
'Me Calum, Ash, Luke, and Myra are looking for you!'
'Come back😪'
'Just please text back so I know ur okay'
There were many more texts like that. I just replied 'I'm fine' and left it with that.
The sky started fading into darkness. I hit me that I had no where to go. I guess I'll just have to sleep in the car
The next day I won't up to birds chirping. I forgot I had run away so as soon as I realized I broke down. I'm such a mess. I checked my phone again.
'30 missed calls from Mikey'
'50 missed calls from CalPal'
'70 texts'
'45 missed calls for Ash'
'55 missed calls from Myra'
30 missed calls from Luke'
I'm starting to feel bad as I realize they miss me. But I'm sure in a couple of weeks they'll forget about me.
I gotta go to the store to get some food.
As I go to grab for the chips I hear a faint voice
"Cassie?" There voice is just barley noticeable. I just keep doing what I'm doing. I'm probably going crazy.
"Cassie" this time the voice was a little louder and more dragged out.
This time I turn around and there stands Ashton Irwin. I'm in shocked but just then he runs into my arms. I hug him back.
"C-ca-cass I never thought I would see you again" he cried. He hugged me even tighter. "Why did you run away? How are you all the way out here?"
"I don't want to talk about it. Especially with everyone here right now." I whisper out. I look up at his face and a frown forms. "fine if you want me to tell you we have to go to a place were no one is. But it can't be your house cause I'm not going back"
He sighed. "okay I know a place"
When I looked up we were in a park. No one was there. We got out of the car and he leaded me over the the swings.
"Okay what happened?" He asked.
"I just feel like I get in everyone's way and I just make everyone's life worse and that everyone hates me." I cried into his chest.
"Cass your not bothering anyone. To be honest I don't think I'd be here without you." I smiled looking off into the distance like he was thinking about something.
"Aw ash. How are the other guys?" He just said that to make me feel better. Ashton would never kill himself, he's to happy. Every time I see him he's smiling. But I still appreciated it.
"Eh. All of them were crying." the thought of Michael crying burned into my head. I started having second thought about running away.
No! It will be better in the long run!
Ashton stood up and pulled me up from the swing a hugged me again. As he pulled away I saw his arms out of the corners out of my eyes. I glanced at them and just realized what I saw. I grabbed his arm and turned it over. My heart sunk.
"Ashton? There fresh. Why?" I asked. The cuts were new. They weren't faded.
He looked down at his shoes.
"Um Cass uh I kinda did it when you left." I felt bad. "I couldn't help it I just missed you so much"
