"You can't. Ashton promise me you won't cut anymore? I'll come back I'll do whatever to make you stop!" I yelled. I felt a tear streaming down my face.
"Fine. If you come back I'll throw away the blades. I'll stop. Forever." He said glancing at me instead of keeping his eyes on his shoes.
I didn't even have to think twice. I grabbed his arm and ran to the car.
"Let's go home!" I shouted.
I ran into his house and found the blades. I ran my finger lightly over the top of one of them. I couldn't imagine pushing this into my skin. The thought of it made me cringe. I threw them away just as Ashton walked into the room.
"All gone?" Ashton giggled.
"All gone" I replied. I'm happy I ran into Ashton.
"Can I take you back to see everyone else? They truly do miss you" Ashton said. He really did care about me and everyone else.
"I don't know just I don't wanna see them." I really didn't. "I only wanna see you" I whispered, hoping that he wouldn't hear the last part.
Ashton just stared at me blankly. It looked like he had a mixture of shock, excitement, and confusion all inside of him. "Hey Cass can I ask you a serious question?"
I felt a tight knot in my stomach. "yes?" I said shaky.
"Are you and Calum dating?"
"Yes" I kinda felt bad. He probably got all excited cause I said I only wanted to be with him.
"Oh" he sighed. "I just kinda hope uh that you know you guys weren't" he started messing with the bracelet on his wrist.
"I know Ash, I think your cute just I feel like we'd work out better as friends. Actually best friends."
Okay I have to admit, I like Ashton. Only because he's been through what I'm going through. He's the only one who knows how to help. Everyone else just says "it's okay Cassie" but not Ash. But I couldn't do that to Calum. I love Calum but he doesn't know what's wrong with me or how to help.
"Oh" he huffed and looked away.
There was an awkward silence.
"Hey Cass, can I confess something?" He stuttered.
"Sure anything Ash" I giggled.
"Okay well this is gonna sound weird but um every time I see you and him together I just get this rush of anger and jealously built up inside me..... And what makes it worse is you once were mine but I let you slip away and I know that I can never get you back" He looked down back at his feet. "well I'm glad I got that off my chest"
I started tearing up. Ashton was so fricken cute! I didn't know what to say. Ugh.
"Cassie don't cry!" He said wiping a tear from my cheek. "I'm sorry I upset you"
"Ashton you didn't upset me....you made me happy" I giggled, smiling up at him.
"Oh okay good" he sighed of relief.
I needed someone's advice. I would ask Myra but she tells Luke everything and we all know Luke's bad at keeping secrets. Then I had the perfect idea.
"Hey ash my friend needs some advice do you think you could help?"
"Sure!"
"Okay well she has a boyfriend that she loves but he doesn't necessarily get her but then there's another guy who has a crush on her and he's really sweet an understands her and she's having trouble who she should choose..who should she choose?" I asked hoping that he wouldn't get that the friend was me.
"Well I thinks it's an obvious choice. I think she should go with the sweet guy that gets her" he winked at me. Ya he got what I was trying to do.
"Okay I'll tell her and she's probably gonna start dating him pretty soon once she clears things up with her current boyfriend." I giggled.
His face lightened up. ""Can I do something weird?"
"Um sure I think" I got really nervous.
He cupped my face in his hands and leaned in. Next thing I know his lips are on mine.
