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Chapter 7: I want you...

Sitting in the balcony in his room I look out at the mini truck carrying two big brown boxes, probably holding my clothes and books, my study table and my stereo system.

This is it. I'm moving in with Sean.

But something was wrong. It's off to a wrong start. First Sean doesn't tell me what's wrong with my health. Next yesterday at dinner, he became quite dull when I was talking about my future. What was wrong with this guy?

I dismiss these irrelevant thoughts aside and walk into his room. I look around. I will be staying in his room itself but my furniture and books will be in the other room. We decided on the setting because if we were to study in the same room then there would be more of other stuff than studying.

I look around and to find my pills. Huh! Where were they? I'm pretty sure I left them on the bedside table.

But the table was empty except for a lamp. I start to open the drawers hoping to find them, but the sight that met my eyes became uncomprehendable...

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Sean POV

I walk in to the room to see Leona going through my drawers with a look of shock, astonishment and...

Fear?

What did I leave there that was causing her this much bewilderment? What did she see so wrong that her face was red and her eyes so wide?

"Sweetie is something wrong?" I walk to her.

"N-nn-nothing... Nothing... Just..." she swallowed hard and turned but only to face the floor. Something was off. I could tell from the way she was avoiding my eyes.

"Just what?" I grip her long thin arms and hold her in place. "What happened, you look just the way you did after our first kiss..." I laughed, trying to lighten the mood, thinking about how red and nervous she had been.

"Nothing... I.. Uh, I -I was searching for my pills and Um... I uh I... I sa-"

"Leo why're you so uncomfortable?stammering so much with me... Tell me..."

She took a long breath as though trying to summon all her courage, faced me and finally said "I saw condoms in your drawer..." she blushed red and looked down again. Her legs were shaking and so were her hands.

Oh that, well, I'd planned stuff for the both of us. It was going to be her last summer so...

But if she's uncomfortable with it then I'll leave her to it. I would never force her. And I think it's time I suggested it.

"Yeah I bought them... For us... I mean are you comfortable..." I dreaded that she would reject me. I know she's probably be a little freaked out but she'll be alright.

"You won't hurt me... Will you Sean?" She looked up at me with tears in her eyes. Those eyes reflected the hurt inflicted on her by her ex.

"Never sweetheart. It'll all be for your pleasure... Never pain... Sweetheart... My angel will not be mistreated..." I assured her and hold her against my chest, stroking her hair and letting her tears drain my shirt.

"Then I guess... It'll be fine... I'm looking forward to doing it with you anyway...." she finally pushed me a little back and laughed.

This was my Leona.

My Leona.

And I would never hurt her....

Or let her get hurt.

"Don't worry angel... We'll take it slow... I won't hurt you... You know I won't..." I smile.

"Well first let's get all the stuff unpacked and arranged now, shall we?" she blinked and looked at me with innocent eyes and my knees went weak.