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Chapter 3: I love her...

I remember when I first saw her . She was running a race in the girls category at the athletic event in Claremont high school.

She finished second in that event, but more than that I felt so drawn to her for no reason.

Then I met her again outside, at the Nike showroom. It was like the fates were trying to unite us. At first she didn't recognize me, but as soon as I started talking about running she relaxed and broke into a huge cute smile which made my knees go weak.

If it had been up to how I wanted it, I would've asked her to be my girlfriend that very minute.

But I didn't want to scare her off. She had been so different from all the other girls I've met before, so different and I fell for her so hard that I'm pretty sure I'd die if I ever lose her.

Last week really freaked me out. She had come over for a sleepover and I went too far with her.

I know she's too young and too innocent. Believe me, I don't want to take advantage of that. I'm ready to wait for her, for when she's ready and comfortable. But I just lost control that Friday night.

She hasn't got over her past experiences with her ex about stuff like that and she's still quite unsure about all this.

Yeah she'll kiss me and all but, she still hesitates and becomes a nervous wreck just before I get close.

And on Friday, I knew she wasn't ok with what I was doing but, I just couldn't stop myself after getting a taste of her beauty.

She started to shivered at first, and I thought that it was out of pleasure.

I was wrong.

Within two minutes she started to cry. At first I thought I hurt her. I freaked out. I got up and held her close to my body.

That's when her first fever hit. I called the family doctor and did everything he said.

Then I remembered she said she was late on her period by two weeks and she was pretty nauseous the whole week. I knew she wasn't pregnant alright.

As far as I know, she was still holding on to her v-card, but one teeny, tiny voice in my mind suggested that I still don't know much about what happened between her ex and her. So I also went out at one in the night and got a test kit.

I was so scared. What if she actually is and she decides to go back to him? What if she decides to leave me? I was ready to support her alright. I actually wouldn't have minded but it was after all her decision and I definitely didn't want to lose her.

Anyways she did the test and she was so happy to see that she wasn't pregnant. I certainly was.

But that'd been the first time she'd puked blood. I freaked out alright... She was so important for me and I thought I'd lose her. I rushed her to the nearby women hospital and called her friend Andrea.

When the doctor told me that day about her condition my heart broke...
She didn't deserve this... She deserved a better life.

And she will have one.

I don't care if I have to spend millions to keep her safe, I want her to stay happy and healthy. That's why I haven't told her anything yet. I instructed her on how to handle her body condition and stuff but I haven't told why it's happening with her yet.

I'm so proud that she trusts me so much that she hasn't tried to get me to tell her what's wrong. She's so innocent and so cute that she doesn't even understand the seriousness of what's happening to her.

According to her she's all grown up and tough. I'm not saying she's not. She's actually been through a lot for her age and I'm pretty sure other kids her age don't have the understanding, the strength, the maturity that she has.

She thinks she knows the world, the way to live strong, without any hurt. She thinks she can live alone all her life, like she doesn't need anybody, sometimes even me. I know how she feels about us. She just doesn't know her worth, she thinks she's a charity case I've taken up.

Little does she know she means a lot more to me than that.

She's trying to isolate herself from everyone.

Friends, family, everyone.

And so far it's working...

Her family never cared about her anyway and her friends, let's just say they're happy to see her go. They don't give a damn about her.

And what's the really sad thing here is she shows she doesn't care for them but I know better. She thinks she's fooling everyone, but not me. I know she still cares about them and she's fighting with herself to stop it.

Oh how I love that girl.

I'm in love with Leona...