Lost (Sequel to Who Are Your Parent?) (Smosh fanfic) (3/3) (COMPLETED)

Chapter 17

So the POV is going to be Anthony for now on since Anna is deceased. I won't be doing POV: Anthony anymore so just try to remember that it's him. I choose just Anthony because Anthony was closer to Anna. There bond was so strong. Ian didn't really get that close to Anna so he doesn't feel as much pain as him. Ian also doesn't have a wolf's broken heart like Anthony. I hope you understand my decision.

And someone in the comments said that I should call you guys my pack as like a wolf pack. I think that's a good idea. So, for now on, instead of smoshers, you guys are my pack. Thank you Gideon Pidgeon for the comment!

I busted through the door, scaring Ian.

"What the fuck man! You can't just-"

I didn't allow him to finish. I ran up to him and hugged him. I started crying.

He was confused. "What's going on?"

He returned the hug even though I thought he wouldn't.

"She's gone...They're both gone...."

"What? Who?"

"First it was Anna....she....she...."

"She...come on man! Spit it out!"

"She's dead."

I automatically sensed shock, sadness, and hatred. 

He pushed me away, "You did this! You were the one who made her go through all that pain that she couldn't take! You're a monster!"

I fell to my knees, "I know! Don't you think any of you know?! Kalel left me because I was a monster! Anna died hating me! I have to live with that!"

"Kalel left you?"

"Yes! Now i'm all alone! I have no where to go! Please Ian, let me stay!"

He kneeled down infront of me, crying, "Of course. I was getting lonely."

I hugged him, "Thank you....I missed you Ian."

He hugged me back, "I missed you too."

I pulled back, "Why are you being so cool about this?"

"Anna and I weren't that close....I'm still sad but i'm not like you....i'm not heartbroken."

"She-she loved you Ian.....she told me to tell you that."

"She did?"

I nodded.

"It's not going to be the same."

I stood up, "I-I need some time alone...."

"Ok...."

I walked to my room, but before I opened the door, I looked at Anna's room.

It smelled just like her. It was a scent that i'll never smell again.

I walked into her room and sat on the bed. I looked around. Her room was empty. She must have packed her stuff to leave.

We could have been happy. We could have been a family. A family that she always wanted.

But I fucked up. I killed her.

I curled up into a ball, grabbed one of her pillows, and cried.

The pain was unbearable. I lost my mate, a pack member, and my daughter. I wonder if this was how Anna felt when she lost her mate....

No wonder she jumped.

If I would have known, if I would have felt this pain before.....I would have let Zack have her.

I would have let her go.

I threw the pillow at the lamp and it fell and crack.

"I can't do this...."

Ian ran into the room, "Are you ok?! What happened?!" He looked at the broken lamp. He got frightened, "Did you try...."

I shrugged my shoulder, "I can't do it....I can't live without her...."

He walked over and sat on the bed next to me, "It's hard. Anna didn't give you the time to get used to her not being here. Yea...I miss her. But I wasn't as close as you. You two were inseparable. You two had a bond that no one could break. No matter how mad she was at you or how mad you were at her, you two loved each other."

I nodded.

He sighed, "Please....stay strong. If not for me...than for Anna."

He smiled at me and walked out.

I looked down at my feet. Anna would want me to be strong.

But I don't know how I can.

I loved her so much.

I don't know how to live without her. She was my first daughter.

And my last.

Kalel left me to fight this battle alone. She broke my heart.

My mom said that once you find your mate, she's yours forever.

I guess that's just a myth.

I got up. I can't sit in here anymore. It reminds me of her.

I walked out and closed the door. Trying to hide the scent.

But it's all over. Everywhere I go, I can smell her. It's even coming from my room.

I walked to the living room where Ian was on the couch, with the TV on, wrapped in a blanket, crying.

He looked up at me and wiped his tears.

I sat down next to him and took some of the blanket. "It's ok to cry. You don't have to hide it."

He sighed, "No, it's fine."

I felt a tear fall down my face. "Well, I'm not going to hide it."

With that, I let the tears come. I didn't bother stopping them. I know Ian. He won't care.

I curled into a ball and cried into my knees.

I felt him wrap his arms around me. Hugging me.

"Thank you...."

We sat like that, in the dark, until I fell asleep.

Oh my god, where have I been! I'm so so so so so so so sorry. I really pushed it this time. It's just that, i'm going through a lot at the moment. I'll try the best I can to update. I'll see you next time, my pack.