In the moment

She deserves it

'We're going to send you down for a CT Sophie okay?' The nurse says while putting the sides of the bed up ready for movement.
'It's soph, she prefers being called Soph' jack corrects the nurse, he was sure he'd already told her twice.
The nurse nod and smiles 'okay Soph the porters are going to take you down now, they're ready and waiting for you so you'll be straight in' she can just make out the lights through her half opened eyes. She squeezes her eyes closed to stop the nausea.
'I'll be right with you bab okay' the Porter nods that it's okay. Jack takes hold of her hand and walks beside her.
As they approach the X-ray department they hand jack a clipboard with a health questionnaire, he realises he doesn't even know any of it. 'Soph I need to fill this questionnaire out, squeeze once for no twice for yes' she squeezes his hand twice making him smile. He sits and relays the questions to her 'epilepsy, heart condition, do you have a pace maker, breastfeeding yeah I know that one don't I!' She try's to laugh but winces. 'Any chance you could be pregnant?' It's goes silent and her hand doesn't squeeze. 'Soph is there any chance?' She squeezes once cutting of him asking again. 'Okay I've signed it on your behalf is that ok?' She squeeze twice again as an okay.
He kisses her hand. Why wasn't he kissing my head, he always kisses my head. A million thoughts going through her mind again, her heads spinning and she goes to retch. Jack places bowl under her chin 'it's okay'
'We're ready' the dr nods to the porters 'I'm sorry mr grealish but you'll have to wait out here' jack accepts his defeat and takes to the row of chairs to wait.
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3am at johns

'Honestly jo, I'll give you my credit card go mental, I just want to go home now!' Jack moans tired and fed up.
Jo looks at him and rolls her eyes 'okay okay if I have to, don't be taking all the credit for my hard work though'
He rolls his eyes back at her and rests his head against the back of the sofa 'just make sure she get a nice dress okay, but don't let her know I'm paying but whatever she wants, shoes bags jewellery I don't care she deserves it' he hold his hand up 'right I'm ordering an Uber it's going to take me an hour to get home'
Jo goes and sits next to jack 'she really does deserve it, and I'm going to be honest with you jack she deserves this happiness with you too' she starts picking at the label on the beer bottle 'her ex, maes dad. He treat her like shit. I mean to leave a women 6 months pregnant for someone else you've been shagging behind her back for months, he's a disgusting piece of shit!' She slams the bottle down in the table
Jacks looks at her like a rabbit in head lights 'she's never mentioned him. Well maybe once but just said she wasn't with him any more' his heart breaks for her and for mae 'how comes he doesn't see mae?'
Jo looks up from her bottle, eyes full of tears 'because he threatened to kill her and the baby when she wouldn't give him the house' she wipes her cheeks 'he lost all rights from then on, she got a restraining order, and in all honesty I'm sure that's why she hired Ada really, she just hated being in that house alone, wondering if he'll ever come back and what he'd do if he did'
Jack looks over at John, he didn't seem surprised, he'd definitely heard this story before. 'Fuck' he was lost for words. 'How could he leave her, and mae. He didn't deserve them anyway by the sounds of it'
'He really didn't jack. She suffered so bad through her whole pregnancy with hyperemesis gravidarum and he thought instead of being there for her, he go dip his rotten tip in something else.' She screwed her face up in disgust.
Jack looked at her 'what hyper ..'
She cuts him off 'hyperemesis gravidarum is like severe morning sickness'
He nods like he know what he's on about 'well we'll better make her 30's a damn sight better than her 20's then'
Jo takes his hand 'I don't think her 20's were that bad, she had mae .. and she found you'
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'Sophie we have you results are you okay for mr grealish to be in the room' Soph try's to nod her head at the dr but the pain takes over. 'Okay so from the CT we can see no internal damage and there no signs of cerebrospinal fluid leakage which is great news. However the fracture is pretty large which explains the amount of bruising to the sight and eyes amongst other symptoms your experiencing, we're going to keep you in tonight okay and keep you monitored and on top of pain relief. How is your pain Sophie?'
'Bad' she replies just getting the word out, her eyes still screwed tight.
The dr checks sophs chart 'okay well we can try you with something stronger and see how that goes and I'll be back on rounds to check on you later this afternoon okay'
Soph raises her thumb hoping the dr sees and he heads off the give the nurses his notes.
Jack sits back down next to sophs bed 'you fucking scared me yknow Soph, you just went down I couldn't get to you quick enough, its all my fault ain't it' he's squeezing her hand again pressing it against his lips. She can feel his tears run down her arm.
'It's not' she croaks, Jack offers her the straw again and she takes a few sips.
'I thought I was gonna lose you, there was so much blood, I screamed for Ada to help. I was just paralysed holding you, trying to stop the bleeding' grimaces at the memory. 'I just love you Soph, so fucking much, I don't ever want to be without you' he leans forward snuggling his head into her chest wishing he'd never left her alone.