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BEEP BEEP BEEP

"FUCK OFF" i accidently scream. Knocking things off my nightstand i find my phone turning off the alarm.

7:23

MATTY B 💟

hey chika
need a ride?

YEP

alright be ready in 10

WHAT BITCH SCHOOL ISNT FOR ANOTHER HOUR
NO WAY IN FUCK IM GETTING READY IN 10 MINUTES

kidding! 🙈😂

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after getting ready i had cereal with joy before there was a knock on the door.
i look at my phone to see it's only 8 am. Not to be weird but they usually get her at exactly 8:09.

"hey hey hey" i nod at all their head. when they wear their uniform they all look so much more alike. usually one of them doesn't wear the sweatshirt or one doesn't wear the tie to tell them apart, but rn they look like... triplets. "wanna come in?"

"sure!" nick decides for them

"goodmorning boys" my aunt greets them with a smile. She's 32 but sometimes she acts 55

"goodmorning!"
"goodmorning"
"hey"

chris isn't a morning person. Joy ruffles his hair making it even messier then the bed head before.

"so watsup in your guys life at the moment". joy asks tidying breakfast "still playing lacrosse?"

"yep aren't we chris" matt gives his brother a shove waking him up causing chris to stumble.

"ya sorry lacrosse yep"

"alright we better get going. i'll see u later" i kiss my aunts cheek and grab my bag trying to put a stop to the awkwardness.

"bye joy!" they all shout as we walk out the door.

"bye!"

Matt and I have almost the exact same schedule -thank god- so school is manageable, most days (except thursdays when we only have one class together..but we will get to that another time). today? no. today is boring as hell and i am not looking forward to it.

i have a chemistry test for first period and i know it's going to go unimaginably terrible.
I tried to study last night but i couldn't focus no matter what. Even after trying so many different methods i cant focus after 20 minutes. I've had this problem for years and it bugs me so much. I want to be successful so bad that if i'm not, it feels like i have failed. I do not like failing.

"hey u alright?" Matt asks from beside me. His eyebrows knit together as his eyes dart from my shaking legs to my fingers drumming the table rapidly.

"yep" I look away just incase he can read my brain. Although i'm sure if he could read my brain he could still read it even if I looked away...

"It doesn't mean anything. The test, it means nothing"

"I know I know" sighing I let my head fall into my hands, but they're pulled back to be held between his.