FOOLS

CHAPTER I

At 8:15 pm he was in a little apartment his parents bought him after knowing about his plan.

A plan that consisted of convincing SM to let him live on a low radar while he put his shit together, convincing Minghao and Seungmin to take care of some important stuff for him and that he would come back one day, plus, warning Chanyeol and Rosè about everything and kick his exes out of his system.

There were little details in his plan (that were crucial) but he doesn't want to list them.

As simple as it seemed, it worked relatively well in the first steps (SM hated him for giving him nearly a year with even a 'do what you want but don't get caught' speech) but he didn't know what he should do now or how to achieve his goal.

Opening the door of his new house and putting his luggage in his bedroom, he sat on the empty floor and stared at the white wall in front of him for some time before sighing and shouting a

"Let's do this!" with a tear rolling down his left cheek.

This was going to take some time

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Deciding to put his phone somewhere that he doesn't even remember after the drink he had was one of his best ideas since he wants to call them and apologize before asking them to love him.

Call him pathetic all you want, but Renjun wasn't going to stop loving them after two weeks.

Hell, he isn't even sure if he could forget them in those 9 months but he is as sure as hell that being drunk will help him a little bit, in his empty apartment without the people he loves the most. The three bottles (without counting the other two in the kitchen and one in his bathroom) of baijiu were helping him (despite a little part of himself scolding him for this).

"I only" He started, the bottle in his hands now on the floor "Want to be loved by you, and you fucked me up bad, I swear that if my heart sinks, then, I'm going to sink with it" He started to hit his chest with his fist while sobbing "I love you! I never meant to leave you"

A little part of himself was laughing at how pathetic he is but was quickly shut down when he got up and went to the bathroom "Why did you make me like this?" He stared at himself from the mirror in front of his skin, his black hair sticking to his face somehow and his eyes red "Why am I like this!" He yelled.

He sobbed harder at this, entering the bathtub and starting to cry there, somehow he avoided the bottle near the sink but he still hit his butt when he (harshly) sat "it's cold" he muttered "It had been two weeks since I was this cold, why can't I have something warm? Why can't I be warm for once?"

It makes him remember how everyone was so worried about Heachan having a cold (he gave him his favorite sweater by leaving it in the boy's bedroom) while he was crying himself to sleep when everyone passed through his room and-

"I bet you would love me if I was warm" He closed his eyes, the position was slightly uncomfortable but this didn't stop him from closing his eyes and dreaming.

It was 4:00 am, Renjun finally fell asleep on his new telephone (with only his manager, Minghao, Seungmin. Chanyeol, Rosè, and parents' number) appeared on a notification from his manager, the light was bright enough to illuminate a little spot in the living room.

Manager-nim

I hope your flight was nice

and you are safe and sound.

-I'm sorry, but they didn't- Message deleted

SM ent. decided to let you cover songs

and post them in a youtube profile you

can create if you want to or on your Instagram

profile.