Scared

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by N4tsbae

by N4tsbae

Y/N pov:

"You're really just going to leave?! Without me?!"

"It's WORK Y/N, why can't you understand,"

"Oh, so work is more important to you?!"

"What? You're being selfish Y/N! I don't BELONG to you!"

"So work is more important than I am!"

"No! I mean yes. It's my responsibility!" she starts. I scoff, I can feel the anger and betrayal burning inside me.

"What about me?! Natasha?! What about me?! Am I really that unimportant?"

"No, I didn't say that! I just said, my responsibility is to work, to protect these people!" She shouts, gesturing out the window, towering over me.

"So you don't feel obligated, in any way, to make sure I'm ok, to make sure you're not hurting me!?"

"WHY WOULD I?! I'M NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR YOU!"

"ARE YOU REALLY THIS INCAPABLE OF LOVING SOMEONE?!"

"I DO LOVE YOU Y/N! I JUST-" She takes a step toward me. I flinch slightly and stumble back a bit. She stops, her eyes soften and she steps back.

"Y/n, are you scared of me?" she says quietly, her gaze on me. A concerned look on her face. I look down. Am I scared of her? I don't know. I'm not scared of her in a way where I think she might kill me, which she is entirely capable of doing, but I don't know. Am I scared of her?

"Y/n..." she reaches for my hand but I pull it away. I look back up at her then leave the room.

"Y/n, wait!" she chases after me. Grabbing me by the arm, I reluctantly turn around halfway to look at her.

"You know I would never hurt you," she says, tears threatening to appear. So she does care. I stay silent.

"I'm sorry, I-I just, I don't know..." she stammers. She rarely stammers. She takes a breathe before resuming.

"Y/N, I love you. I've always loved you and I'll always love you. You'll ALWAYS be the most important thing in my life and I don't know why I said what I said, I shouldn't have said it and I'm sorry..." she says, her hands grasping onto mine, a look in her eyes that tell me she's talking from her heart.

"I believe you..." I reply, I turn to face her straight. "I'm sorry for what I said too...I shouldn't have said what I said either..." I look her in her eyes. The green eyes I couldn't resist when I first fell for her. She looks back at me. We stay like this for a few moments.

"Come here," she pulls me into a hug. Her arms envelop me in a hug that makes me feel safe, but it's also those arms that I know can easily break my bones. It's very contradictory but it's just how my brain works. I relax in her arms, the thoughts in my head slowing down.

"Don't ever leave me, understand?" she laughs weakly as she pulls away.

"I won't, you're the one that has to keep that promise," I say, a weak smile forming on my face.

"I love you so much," her hands cup my cheek and she kisses me. Those lips that's been on mine so many times before, this time it feels different. It feels deeper, like it has more meaning. That's not to say our previous kisses had no meaning but this one, this one was... more...

A/N: I have school and I'm quite busy lately so this one will get updated more just because it takes less time to write. Love you all <3