In my stead

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by N4tsbae

by N4tsbae

Y/N Pov:

My screams filled the room as Natasha walked away. My suit. My hair. My face. She was stubborn like this and when she wants to do something, very little things can stop her, including me. I try moving but the panic sending my brain into a frenzy. I finally release myself from the chair and run to her.

"Please..."

"Y/N,"

"This is all my fault, please don't,"

"Y/n, you have a life to live. I've lived mine and made too many mistakes in it"

"What about me? You promised,"

"Y/n, come on,"

"YOU PROMISED I WOULD GET TO GO FIRST"

"But-"

"I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU NATASHA! But you can..."

"No-"

"Please..."

"Y/N! NO. YOU HAVE PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU."

"YOU DO TOO! NATASHA PLEASE. YOU DIDN'T NEED TO BE HERE! THIS WAS MY FAULT, I MESSED UP."

"You were my responsibility, your faults become my faults,"

"BUT YOU ARE GOING TO DIE."

"I HAVE A BETTER CHANCE THAN YOU,"

"Natasha...."

She takes my hand, squeezing it tight. Her eyes fill up up tears. She pulls me into a pain-striken kiss. Both of us with tears rushing down our faces. I wanna stay here, in this moment forever. We pull away slowly, putting our foreheads against each other.

"You don't have to do this"

"I love you" she whispers. At this point stopping her is out of the question.

"I love you too..." her breathing slows as she looks me in the eyes. "You're crying," I choke out.

"Mhm, I am..."

"You never cry..."

"I know" the moment reduces to silence again and I try to preserve this moment for as long as possible. Footsteps are heard a little far off and my eyes dart to her. Fear appears in her eyes and she straightens up. "Tell everyone I love them...look after Wanda for me, " she starts walking away then turns back around, "look after yourself Y/N". I nod.

The journey back to New York was gruelling. Physically and Emotionally, but most emotionally. The aching in my chest grows. I know I have to face the team and tell them everything. They will hate me, of course they will. If I hadn't messed up Natasha would still be here.

A/N: Do I like this? Not really, but I haven't written much lately so here is something.