🥀𝕽𝖔𝖘𝖊𝖘 𝕬𝖓𝖉 𝕿𝖍𝖔𝖗𝖓𝖘 🥀

~PART ①⑦

JAY'S POV

"So.. that is why... they don't talk to you.." Y/N said, "because you don't let them talk to you.." Jungwon added "yeah..." I said nodding my head "but, you know what?? I'm really glad that you came out of it, I mean it's not that easy to come out of something that you're addicted to... specifically drugs" Jungwon said as he looked right into my eyes...

Y/N'S POV

The way Jungwon looks at Jay... I've never seen him look at someone like how he looks at Jay, I smile to myself and say "Yeah, I'm glad too," I said which broke the eye contact between Jay and Jungwon "Your sister hates you now?? and that's why you don't talk to each other??" I asked breaking the silence.

Jay took a deep breath and said "no... she... uhmm.. s-she had taken a lot of drugs which, her body wasn't able to take and.. so... she d-died" He said as his eyes filled with tears and now rolling down his cheeks uncontrollably.

Jungwon quickly goes and hugs Jay while I'm just standing there regretting why I even asked him about his sister "it's my fault, it's my fault that she is no mor-" Jngwon spoke as he didn't let Jay finish.

"It isn't your fault, you tried to get her out of it but she just did not listen, so don't blame yourself" Jungwon comforted him. "i-i'm sorry... I shouldn't have asked-" I spoke "no it's fine, you didn't do anything wrong. it was me, I was the-" "COULD YOU STOP BLAMING YOURSELF?!?!?"

Jungwon yelled which made me and Jay surprised because he isn't the type of person to yell at someone. "HOW CAN I NOT?!?!? DO YOU THINK IT'S EASY TO LIVE LIKE THIS??? AFTER YOU'RE THE REASON FOR YOUR OWN SISTER'S DEATH?? I've been living in guilt and regret since the day she left me, I HAVE FAILED TO BE A GOOD BROTHER. my parents are even worse-"

He stopped the moment he sighted Sunghoon who had just come top with Jake and the others, they would have woken up when Jungwon yelled which was pretty loud "is everything alright??" Sunghoon asked as he was not sure of what was going on.

Sunghoon froze for a moment when he saw Jay in tears "Jay, you alright??" Heeseung asked in a worried tone as he came toward Jay "Yeah, i-i'm good" he said and quickly wiped away his tears.

"I don't think you're alright" Sunghoon spoke "I know you, and you don't cry that easily," he said "look, we know what happened, Jay, we heard everything, you just said to Y/N, and Jungwon. I'm sorry you thought of us that way, we would never judge you." Jake said as he hugged Jay with Sunghoon joining them a second later.

Jay burst out in tears and let it all out. we all went down. Jay and the others quickly fell asleep but I could not sleep. every time I close my eyes now, I can see my mom, and honestly, I'm scared of sleep paralysis happening to me again.

I was lost in my thoughts when I received a message from 'DAD'  "Y/N, I'll be coming come tomorrow" I got up and sat straight. "okay, dad" why is he coming tomorrow?? all of sudden? well, at least Jungwon will be happy to see him.

"WhAt ArE yOu DoInG???" Someone whispered in my ears "What the fu-" I said as I jumped with shivers running down my spine, Sunghoon chuckled and sat next to me "why does everyone keep scaring the shit out of me??" I said.

"because you easily get scared," he said and I gave him a judgemental look "why didn't you sleep yet??" he asked "oh.. um.. its.. I'm scared of falling asleep" what the fuck why would I say that??

there was complete silence for 10 secs straight "I do know that you get scared easily but I didn't know you were scared of falling... asleep....?" "i-i get sleep paralysis" I said "oohh.. oh.. now that makes sense" he said.

"Why didn't you sleep?" I asked "oh.. i.. was overthinking" "about what??" "about how you got Jay to tell you all of that stuff" he said, I groaned and said, "honestly it wasn't me it was Jungwon, I mean can't you see??"

"I can, I can see very well," he said "I mean..." as said as I point at Jay and Jungwon cuddling on the couch as they're deep in sleep "ooohhh they're kinda cute" "they're the cutest" (yes, Y/N is a simp for Jaywon, don't judge).

"But I bet he wouldn't have opened up if you weren't there," he said, "yes, I am curious and I ask questions without thinking, and I can't help that, okay??" I said "I know that you're a curious type the moment I saw you, I mean anyone can tell, the way you talk and stuff, that's why I like you." he said

did he just- did he say he likes me..? oh my god I think I'm blushing, play it cool Y/N DON'T EMBARRASS YOURSELF, "you think so..? alright... well I think that I like how you don't talk and then suddenly out of nowhere you just come and start a conversation with me." I said

okay bye. I don't know if that was a compliment or just a useless comment. why am I digging my own grave?!?!? "that was cute" he said while laughing out loud and patted my head before going back to his place.

WHAT IN THE MO****F*****G WORLD WAS THAT?!?!?!? DID HE CALL ME CUTE I CAN'T HANDLE THIS MY FACE IS BRIGHT RED ALREADY NDBVYQIANASUYQUIWHSI HE PATTED MY HEAD?!?!? AM I DREAMING??!?!? Y/N WAKE UPP WAKE UP Y/N I SLAP MYSELF AND "ooowww!!" MY FACE HURTS NFBDHUSIUADBI IS THIS REAL?!?!? ANSHGDHYCJUFHURJD