꧁𝐌𝐲 𝐋𝐚𝐝𝐲, 𝐃𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬꧂. 𝐾𝑢𝑟𝑜𝑠ℎ𝑖𝑡𝑠𝑢𝑗𝑖[DISCONTINUED]

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 28

(A/N-The gif looks like someone is giving Howl a head...)

I was dressed in an orderly manner for my role as a guest. A red and black dress, with my hair in a neat bun. I didn't know how to feel seeing them again, but one thing I did know was that I wasn't some coward to keep running away. It would leave dirt on my role as uppermoon 0. I took a deep breath before walking around the corner leading to the dining room, bumping into someone's chest, I look up with embarrassment only to find it was Sebastian, again.

"Ah, Sebastian..."

"[F/N]...Are you sure about this?" He gently puts a hand on my shoulder. I slightly shivered at his light touch but removed his hand from my shoulder and pushed passed him, in front of the door to the dining room.

"Yes,"

I open the door, and all eyes were now on me, and all conversations had stopped. Ciel looked at me with surprise before his expression warped into a sly look. There at the table were six other people with him, Kyojuro, Giyuu, Muichiro, Tanjiro, Inosuke and Zenitsu. I took a deep breath once more before smiling and taking a seat next to Zenitsu.

"I apologise for being late, anything that I may have missed?" I tried to stay calm but the sweat dripping down my forehead clearly shows otherwise.

Ciel, luckily covered for me,

"Do not fret, Dinner had not even started. My dear guests, This is [F/N] [L/N] but then again...I would think you would already know that." 

The room was silent. Suddenly out of nowhere, Tanjiro spoke up in a strong voice, standing up and looking at me from across the table where he is sat,

"[L/N]-san! It is a pleasure to meet you again, Maybe after dinner, we could speak about our journeys afterwards!" He was clearly struggling to say those words, I was speechless but smiled awkwardly. He sat down as Mey-rin and Sebastian came in with our food. But when Sebastian stepped into the room I noticed a change in the atmosphere. He still had the same sarcastic look as always, but the way he looked at my slayers disturbed me. He made quick eye contact with me, but during that small amount of time we looked at each other, his stare felt cold. He no longer cares for me perhaps? No no, I must be overthinking. Then  I realized that he is still cautious of me with Ciel.

I looked at Ciel, then back at Sebastian who had already placed the food on the table, he looked at me again with a sharpened glare. I look away and stare at my hands on my lap. I should've known. He isn't the same demon as I am. Those types of demons only care for their own belongings, and don't even see others as being who also have feelings but instead see the rest as pawns, objects, and food. I take a deep long breath thinking back to the moment we had in the townhouse.

Oh, I had almost forgotten, I look out the window to see deep blue eyes staring back at me, seems to be sitting on a tree. the figure kept staring at me before I gave a quick nod and the figure ran off.

I couldn't eat. No. I can't. If I ate anything with the appetite I have now it is most likely I will throw up. I stare at my empty plate, I have not even attempted to get any food at all.

I cough before excusing myself, Ciel looked at me with worried eyes as I left while Sebastian gave me an evil smirk. The rest stared as I left.

"Umai!"

I went out to the gardens, It was dark but not too dark as the light from the manor and the moonlight lit up the area quite well. I sat on a bench, leaning back, resting my entire body, and closing my eyes.

I'm so tired. I just want all of this to be over, live in peace. Hell, I would actually want a proper job. Maybe own a shop. Live alone, maybe a pet. . .a partner?

I tip my head back, undoing my hair from the tight bun. Maybe. . .something to clear my mind.

I reached my room and got changed into a nice loose dress, my hair was free and there were no accessories, just a simple, nice dress. I snuck out, managing to not draw any attention from any of my coworkers or guests.

Once I left I kept walking, out of the gardens, out to a nice plain of grass, with no crowded trees nearby that feel like they were suffocating me. I felt so free at that moment. Tears couldn't help but prick my eyes, I sat on the grass when you actually relax, the sharp grass pricking you feel like cotton against your skin, and the damp wetness of the grass serves for cooling me down despite the already cold weather, It becomes relaxing, so relaxing that maybe...I might just...

sleep.

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"Such an angel, Hard to believe she's a uppermoon, right master?" 

Muzan had [F/N]'s head in his lap as she rested, I couldn't help but stare at her sleeping form, What is this feeling? adoration, maybe? I don't know, but the feeling makes me want to act like one of those girls, all giddy. But my thought was interrupted by my Master's sudden shaking.

"master?" He gently set her head back down, except he has taken off his coat and used it as a pillow to rest her head.

When he stood back up I got a better chance to look at his face. It was stone cold as always, except for tears. Tears that kept flowing, He took a deep breath before looking at my confused face.

"Let me tell you something, Douma."

"ᴏɴʟʏ ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴀ ʏᴏᴜɴɢ ᴀɢᴇ. ɪ ʜᴀᴅ ᴀ ᴅᴇᴀᴅʟʏ ᴄᴏɴᴅɪᴛɪᴏɴ. ᴍʏ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ ʜᴀᴅ ꜱᴛᴏᴘᴘᴇᴅ ᴍᴜʟᴛɪᴘʟᴇ ᴛɪᴍᴇꜱ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ'ꜱ ᴡᴏᴍʙ. ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ʙᴏʀɴ. ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴅᴇᴇᴍᴇᴅ ᴀ ꜱᴛɪʟʟʙᴏʀɴ. ɴᴏᴛ ʙʀᴇᴀᴛʜɪɴɢ. ʙᴇꜰᴏʀᴇ ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴛᴀᴋᴇɴ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴄʀᴇᴍᴀᴛᴇᴅ, ɪ ʟᴇᴛ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴍʏ ꜰɪʀꜱᴛ ꜰᴇᴡ ᴄʀɪᴇꜱ, ᴇꜱᴄᴀᴘɪɴɢ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ. ɪ ᴡᴀꜱɴ'ᴛ ꜱᴜᴘᴘᴏꜱᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ʟɪᴠᴇ ᴘᴀꜱᴛ 20. ᴀ ᴅᴏᴄᴛᴏʀ ᴛʀɪᴇᴅ ᴛʀᴇᴀᴛɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ, ʙᴜᴛ ɪɴ ꜰᴇᴀʀ ᴏꜰ ᴍᴇ ɴᴏᴛ ᴛʜɪɴᴋɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴇᴅɪᴄɪɴᴇ ᴡᴏʀᴋᴇᴅ ɪ ᴋɪʟʟᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴀɴ. ᴏɴʟʏ ᴛʜᴇɴ ᴅɪᴅ ɪ ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴢᴇ ᴍʏ ꜱᴛʀᴇɴɢᴛʜ"

"ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ ꜰɪʀꜱᴛ ꜱᴀᴡ [ꜰ/ɴ], ꜱʜᴇ ᴡᴀꜱ ɪɴ ᴀ ᴡᴇᴀᴋ ꜱᴛᴀᴛᴇ. ꜱʜᴇ ᴅɪᴅ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ꜱʜᴇ ᴄᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴛᴏ ꜱᴜʀᴠɪᴠᴇ. ꜱʜᴇ ᴇꜱᴄᴀᴘᴇᴅ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ʀɪɢʜᴛ ʙᴇꜰᴏʀᴇ ʜᴇʀ ᴇxᴇᴄᴜᴛɪᴏɴ. ꜰɪɢʜᴛɪɴɢ ᴀꜱ ꜱʜᴇ ʀᴀɴ ᴀꜱ ꜰᴀʀ ᴀꜱ ʜᴇʀ ʟᴇɢꜱ ᴄᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ʜᴇʀ. ꜱʜᴇ ᴡᴀꜱ ʙᴇᴛʀᴀʏᴇᴅ ʙʏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇꜱ ᴡʜᴏ ꜱʜᴇ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛ ʟᴏᴠᴇᴅ ʜᴇʀ ᴍᴏꜱᴛ."

 "ɪ ꜱᴀᴡ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ɪɴ ʜᴇʀ"