Lonely Hoe | midoriya izuku

chapter forty-five; a mess

Lighting and the others had left the room not too long ago, leaving you with Sho and your own thoughts. To be honest the two toned haired man looked uncomfortable as he fidgeted to himself from the other side of the room. Every time he glanced at you, it was like he was looking at someone else.

You weren't too worried though, what you were really looking at was the huge screens in front of you of other humans crashing from their highs and dying as humanoids grinned in pleasure. This all made you sick to your stomach, you wrapped your arms around yourself as you tried to calm down.

"Tell me, human, how does it feel being in the body our savior has put you in? It's fulfilling isn't it? No need to eat, no need to sleep, no need to dream, no need to aging. How is it? It's great isn't it?"

Lighting's words drifted through your head as you bit your bottom lip— this feeling wasnt great, you couldn't sleep, you were never hungry, and nothing ever really hurt. Even when you and Bakugo crashed Mei's out-of-control bike and yoi scratched your knees on the ground, it only hurt for a little while.

And since physical pain didn't affect you.. it meant mental pain was 10x worse.

"...don't cry.." Shi'a voice muttered from his corner, which made your head snap in his direction immediately.

"I'm not going to cry," You snapped, looking away from him.

No matter how hot Sho was, it still didn't shake off the fact he was with Zuku, Toga, and Lighting.

Silence envelopes you two, you didn't know what to say to Sho, and he certainly didn't know what to say to you.

That's when you remembered something.. Zuku told you how Sho fell in love with a little girl.. maybe Sho had a soft spot for kids.. maybe...

..you could use his trauma as a means to escape.

"..hey.. who.. who was that little girl you used to take care of?" You whispered out, looking over at Sho.

Sho has his arms crossed as he leant against the wall, and at the sound of your question he tensed.

"Her name.. was Eri," Sho answered, which surprised you.

You thought he would ignore your question, but he seemed really open about it despite the big deal Zuku made from it.

"How did she die?"

"I killed her."

Ever since Midoriya Izuku met you, life has been like a dream, he's laughed, he's cried, he's cringed. He has felt every emotion there is when being with you, that's why he woild travel to the ends of the earth to find you.

Yet.. he was ashamed of himself for coming all the way to Shibuya, if he never had then you would've never got kidnapped. If he hadn't been such a mess, you would be with him and everything would be fine.

However nothing was fine, everything was a mess.

This situation was mess.

Mei was a mess.

Bakugo was a mess.

Izuku was a COMPLETE MESS.

While Izuku was immersed in his thoughts, Bakugo seemed to have enough of Izuku silently sulking as the blond led the way— so the spikey haired humanoid did what anyone would do.

And slapped the shit out of Izuku.

"—you killed her?" You repeated, a shiver going down your spine.

You never would've guessed that the silent Sho coild kill a little girl, in fact you were surprised by hearing this. Zuku made it seem like this Eri kid died on her own— but it seemed that that wasn't the whole truth.

"...she was a small thing.. whenever I held her I thought she would crumble in my arms..." Sho closed his eyes, as if picturing Eri's small form in front of him, but instead it was you standing in front of him, not Eri, ".. she had been sick for days, her parents refused to let her rest, Eri would wake up screaming for me most nights, and I couldn't stand it.. she begged me to do it, she told me to do it.. she wanted me to do it." Sho finished.

He kept repeating how that's what Eri wanted, as if trying to reassure himself about what he had done.

"You loved her." You said, you found yourself in front of Sho, your round childish eyes looking up at him.

Sho opened his eyes, and stared down at you.

His heart hammered in his chest.

"I loved her, I loved her so much," He confessed, his multi colored eyes casted a dark shadow.

"I wish I died with her that day."

"—OW!! K-Kacchan what was that for!!" Cried Izuku, holding is bright red cheek as Bakugo glared down at him.

"I don't want to see you sulking anymore, [m/n] came out all this way to find you, you left us to go into hiding so you won't have to see that idiot once he woke up from being dead, and you selfishly kept [m/n] in that USB chip! You're such a selfish PRICK!

.. I don't exactly see what that man sees in you, but for fucks SAKE! I'm tired of hearing you cry and bitch about feeling guilty, for once could you just shut up and open your eyes that not everything revolves around YOU?" Katsuki shouted, his face turning red, as if this fanfiction wasn't a male reader x Izuku.

Something in Izuku's stomach swirled a little, as if a small bubble was forming.

And as the greenette held his cheek, he knew that what the blond was saying was correct. After all, Izuku knew that this entire operation was past everything they have ever knew. This was bigger then [m/n] being kidnapped, this was bigger than Izuku getting his feelings hurt.

"...you're right, I'm sorry Kacchan," The greenette moved his hand away from his cheek, the pain had disappeared and the red spot was slowly healing, "... let's go find [m/n].. for everyone!"

"Yeah.. that's more I like it, Deku!"