I hear Lisa say those words that nothing we could ever do is a bad decision, but this feels like one. I feel her press against me and it feels like home again. Her familiar scent invade my senses. My mind is telling me to stop this and let her go, but my heart is telling me the exact opposite.
I know that if or when we cross this line, it will only be temporary. Nothing is going to change, we'll have sex and she'll go back to Nancy and the baby and I'll be left here alone again.
Right now though, with Lisa standing in front of me, I don't pay any heed to any of it.
The need to feel her skin against mine is too urgent. She sits me down on the bed and lifts my shirt off and throws it to the ground. I love the way Lisa looks at me, like I'm the last bit of water on Earth and she needs me to survive the drought in her.
She takes off her shirt and places my hand over her heart. "Jennie, this is always yours. Please never forget that." she says.
I look up at her and can't help but feel how fast her heart is beating. "I need you. I have missed your touch, your lips and your heart. It drives me crazy knowing that you are not with me." Lisa pleads with me.
I try to blink back my tears, but I feel a lone one fall. God knows how hard I have tried to stop loving Lisa. A person who I have loved since I was 15. She owns my heart and soul and will forever hold it, because I know deep down that I am incapable of loving someone else other than Lisa.
She leans down and captures my lips again and I feel her slowly nudge me to lay down. She straddles my hips and starts to kiss my neck.
I moan to let her know that I need her all over me. Her kisses are setting fire to my skin and my soul. I feel her tug at my pants and I lift my hips so she can slide them down.
"I need you." I whisper to Lisa.
"I need you too, Nini. I have missed you so much." she says.
I undo her jeans and she pushes them off her hips and they fall onto the floor.
I look into her eyes and all I see is the love she has for me. "Please," I moan as I feel her take off my panties and push down her boxers.
She pushes inside me slowly and I grab onto her back. "You are mine, Jennie. I love you so much." Lisa moans as she moves inside of me.
I lift up my hips and need her to go deeper inside me. Feeling the pressure build in my core as she used her thumb to rub my clit.
"Fuck I'm so close," I moan as I dig my nails into her back.
She speeds up her thrusts and I feel myself right on that edge. She takes my right leg and puts it on her shoulder getting deep inside me and that pushes me over the edge.
"Oh god Lisa, I'm coming," I yell riding on my orgasm.
She grunts more and thrusts inside me and I feel her release and grab onto my hips tightly.
"Yes Jennie, fuck you feel so good."
She collapses on my body and just holds me. My hands running up and down her back.
She pulls out of me and lays down beside me. I cover myself with the duvet cover and think of what to say. I don't know why I let this happen and now I have helped her cheat on Nancy.
"You should probably go," I say trying not to look at Lisa.
"Why? There is no place I want to be, but right here with you," she says putting her arm around me.
"What about Nancy? I am not feeling particularly good about what happened knowing that you are with her," I say.
"I live with her yes, but that is all. I have been sleeping on the couch since you left. I just want to be there for my child, but that is it." she retorts back.
