It's been a whirl wind of emotions ever since we found out that I was pregnant. First I was so happy, then I felt sad because we'll never get to know the little life we lost before this precious one. After I went through the sadness happiness took over again and that is where I currently am.
Now at eight and a half months along I am starting to do what they call nesting . Making sure everything is in its place. On Lisa's last long stretch home, her and Bambam went to the storage locker and got out the baby stuff we put there.
The nursery now looks amazing and complete and is just missing the most important thing, Baby Manoban.
We thought in honour of our angel baby that we would hang up our only picture of him or her beside the picture of angel baby's brother or sister.
Looking at the finished nursery and all the love that went into build it, I feel a lone tear fall.
"Are you okay?" Lisa asks wrapping her big arms around me.
"Perfectly fine. Just the hormones," hoping she'll believe me.
"I still miss him or her too. There will always be a spot in my heart that will never be filled," Lisa said while holding me tighter.
"Me too, but I try not to think about it. Focus on this little one who we will be so busy with, but I will always wonder what he or she would have looked like," leaning into her.
"In my mind she looks like you. You always make me smile, so when I think of her, she is a mini you who lights up the room and gives me that sassy attitude, just like her mom."
"I picture a little boy with his your deep amber eyes and can do attitude and you teach him how to skate on a home-made rink and we both get so excited when he scores his first goal in hockey," I said while smiling to myself.
"Well our little one is doing one of those things up in heaven and this one in here will for sure have a guardian angel for life," she says while rubbing my stomach.
"If I haven't said it enough lately I love you so much and thank you for loving me."
"You never have to thank me for that, you make it easy to love you and we have been through so much. This is a new chapter of all things good," Lisa says while turning me around kissing me slowly.
"Are you looking to get lucky Ms. Manoban?"
"Always Mrs. Manoban, but what I said was right from my heart. You own this. You always have and always will," placing my hand over her heart.
I slide my hands down her chest and under her shirt and feel her muscles flex as my hands run up her skin.
"What is it that you want?" she asks me raising one eyebrow.
"You Lisa, all of you. Make me yours tonight."
She takes my hand and leads me to our bedroom. Taking off my shirt and pushing my jeans off.
"Fuck you look so hot, all pregnant with my baby," she says smiling.
"I look bloated and fat," I say laughing.
"You never see you through my eyes. You looks beautiful and sexy," Lisa leans in and kisses my neck. Her hands are on my hips and moving towards my aching core.
Her fingers slide into my fold and I moan loudly.
"Always so wet for me. I love how responsive your body is to my touch. Let's see how responsive it is to my tongue," Lisa kneels down in front of me.
She pushes my legs a part and kisses my inner thigh making her way closer to where I need her.
"Please," begging her and feeling her fingers speed up. Finally her tongue reaches my pussy and I grab her hair and tug on it as she licks me fast.
