Alone •rosèkook•

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    I've been here for almost half an hour but Jisoo didn't come here nor bid goodbye to me .. I don't even know if they left yet

      I went to think about how my situation led to this, my arm still hurts but I wonder why I'm still not becoming a monster .. the cut is a bit deep .. maybe what Yerim did helped ... I smiled a little ..

       Later I felt someone sit next to me and lean against the tree

      "I'm sorry Rosé for what happened ..."  V said in front of me

       "I'm sorry we didn't catch him"
       "That boy is really stubborn"  Suga and Rm said and left as well

      I just looked at Jungkook who also leaned against the tree who is hugging his one knee

      "Hey can you leave now .."But he didn't answer nor look at me

      "Are you deaf ?! Get out of there .. do you also want to be a monster huh? !!"

        " I'll kick you if you didn't leave ..." I threatened as if I could kick him

        "Are you really a de-

        I stopped speaking when he looked at me .. it was obvious on his face that he had just finished crying ..

       .. he's cold and too cool but when I saw him cry I felt bad for him

       "Wh- why are you here huh? .. you're about to leave .. just go with them .." I said calmly

        "Don't you really see huh ?! Don't you notice?"

       "Notice qhat ?! Can you just say it ... When I became a monster her-

      "What?! .. if you become a monster here you will eat me ?! Then don't worry it's fine for me .. because I don't want to leave you .."

      I was surprised by what he said .. even though I don't know what that means .. it's just gives me butterflies even I didn't know why

       I want to protect you  but now that this is your situation then I sacrifice myself to accompany you even I will be a zombie it's ok..so don't be stubborn "

       "You dont be stubborn  .. and don't be stupid too .. I'll be a zombie soon. and protecting me you don't have the responsibility to do that."

      "Don't you really notice huh ?! We only met in a few days I know in sar-"

      "We only met what?!if you want to protect others then protect them go in the bus, so they will not be like me.. Is one person more important to you than many person huh ?! "

      "Yes!"

      I'm stunned, my heart skipped a beat to what he just said. I looked at him straight into his eyes, My heart beat beats fast, butterflies dancing to my stomach and blood rush to my cheeks.. he love me?

     "That one person is more important to me especially because I love her! .."

      I couldn't talk because of what he said .. shttt is it true? ..

    " What did you say?"

    "Rosé I love you .. the first time we met I know I like you but day by day I realized that I love you .. That's why I reacted like that when Nancy did that to you .. So I want to be with you even if something bad happens to me it's fine .. "he said sweetly in low voice while cupping my cheek ..

     "I'm sorry but I dont love you .."

     I saw that he became even more emotional and surprised by what I said

      "I don't like you so can you just leave me alone.."

   
   "But Rosé .."

    "I told you right .. you love me? .. but I'm sorry because I don't like you .. you know what I only want? .. to go to a safe place with unnie ... So just leave" I act serious to him

     I can see that his reaction was a bit sad and angry because of what I said ..

     I heard him chuckles a little and stood in front of me "I think that's why it's  happened to you"  and left in front of me at the same time

    I was so hurt by what he said ..

      I don't know how I will feel if I will be happy or sad when he said he love me. Well yes I will admit I also love him but .. I  will be a zombie soon remember .. I also don't want to hurt him so I did that to him, but I think he said too much to me

   I burst in crying hugging my knees without minding if anyone will hear me .. many questions and thoughts in my mind like

       Am I really that bad person... that's why I deserve it?..