Alone •rosèkook•

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   We all slept first because it was already night and like what Yerim said..

    About 1am I woke up and saw them all asleep

    The others just sat and slept there in the living room because the space was small

   We girls in Jeongyeon’s room slept

   There are only three rooms here, the living room, the bedroom itself and the cr

    I first went out on the balcony to get some fresh air

    Just overlooking here is just not too good to everyone..ofcourse... only chaotic road and  some walking zombies

     While closing my eyes, feeling the cold air, someone gently hugged my back and leaned his head on my shoulder. which i surprised

    I could feel the heat of his breathing because his head was facing my neck

   I slowly turned to see who it was and removed his hand that was wrapped around my waist  but it really didn't want to.

      "chaeyoung ..." he said softly so I heard its Jungkook

    "huh?"
   
     "I'm sorry ..." I could feel the sadness in his voice

     it tickles my neck because of the heat of his breathing and his speech

      "for what?"

     "to what I did and what I said ..." he said while leaning his head on my shoulder and still hugging my back

    It gives me butterflies in what this man is doing

      "It's okay, I'm sorry for what I said to you thats why you are mad... but-" I'm still trying to really let him go because I'm uncomfty with what he's doing but he really doest want to let go... instead of let going he hug me really tight.. not chocking but signing that he doesnt really ant to let go of me

     i have that feeling saying that i like, i love what hes doing but i kept denying and pushing him away

      "I also couldn't stand when you disappeared ... but chaeng .... do you really hate me?..." he said in soft tone while looking straight at me

     I can't answer because I'm shy to say it and too many things running and making me doubts

     "what? do you like me or not ..."

     Finally I also lost in his hug and  faced him

    "ahmm the matter .. jungkook ..." I did face him but I couldn't look at him properly

     "chaeyoung ..." when he slowly took one of my hands and his other hand lifted my face to look at him

    "I'll accept if you don't want to .. but just tell me"

     "I really like you ... I just don't like ... "causing him to  smile

       "but I don't want to get hurt and I don't want to hurt you either .. What if I continued to be a monster how about you? .. what if you disappeared,wht if i lost you... how about me ??" I continued as he laughed briefly but I could see his tears dripping

    "Is that all? .. then I won't let that happen .. chaeyoung I won't leave you .." he said while cupping my cheeks

    -"I'm going to die but I won't let you die ..." he pressed his forehead to mine and I cried

     I was a weak punch him because of what he said and he laughed

    " Why are you saying that!"

     "just kidding ... but it's not a joke that I won't leave you ... remember that .."

     after he said that he look at me deeply in my eyes which i did too and i smiled

   he still looking and my eyes until that eyes looking down slowly and his gaze landed on my lips ..

    and as  expeted he kissed me.. it surprised me but

     this is...he is my first kiss... he softly kissed me giving me butterflies not only in my stomach but traveling it in my whole body..

     I didn't stop him  .. that kiss was passionate and long.  ... which I respond to his kiss ...

     Fudgeee this is my first kiss ....

(Sorry🤭)