Blue Moon S2: You're My Star

Chapter 12

"Jihoon?" Jihoon blinked his eyes as he heard someone call his name. He raises his head.

"What it is, Hyunsuk?" He brings his hand to caress Hyunsuk's face. He then leaves a peck on the latter's forehead.

"Jihoon, am I really sick?" The first question Hyunsuk asked him brought him to reality. He grabbed Hyunsuk's hands and kisses them.

"No, babe. You're not sick. You're just started to forget something. We will work things out, okay?" He assured Hyunsuk. His lips are still on Hyunsuk's hand.

"But, Jihoon. What if someday I forget about you? What if I don't know who you are and started to hate you?" Hyunsuk throws tantrum. This is the first time he has ever seen Hyunsuk act this way. He looks at Hyunsuk's eyes. Deep. He then grabs Hyunsuk's face making sure both of their eyes meet.

"Hyunsuk, all of the people, I know you're the last one to hate me. Before that happened, we will create a lot of memories and portray it all. We will do everything to make you remind of all of those days. We can always watch it together and reminisce about it, okay?" Jihoon touches his forehead with Hyunsuk's. As if to ensure him everything will be already. He then slowly moves a bit lower and place his lips on Hyunsuk's. After nibbling it for a few seconds, he stops.

"In the end, you will be the only person who remembers it all, Jihoon," Hyunsuk said. Tears drop from the corner of his eyes.

"You don't want it? Hyunsuk before you forget everything about me, I want to write as many as possible memories with you. So, please never have any thoughts of leaving me." Jihoon pulls Hyunsuk into his embrace. Not want to let him go. It was a lie if he says he didn't afraid that someday Hyunsuk will forget him but as long as Hyunsuk was within his reach, he will be fine. Just having Hyunsuk without his memory is enough. He can still create those new memories over and over again.

"Jihoon, I am thinking to quit my job," Hyunsuk said. Jihoon who is busy arranging the groceries the bought on the way back home, halted his actions. He strides toward Hyunsuk who is chilling on the couch.

"Why?!" His loud voice surprised Hyunsuk a little bit.

"Well, before I get fired, don't you think I should quit?" Hyunsuk looks at him with the most desperate eyes ever. He is surely lost over the gaze. He let out a sigh before kneeling in front of Hyunsuk. He grabbed Hyunsuk's hands.

"It's your dream. Don't you think it's a waste? Plus, we can slow down the dementia symptoms if you take medications and attend therapy." Jihoon knows well how was hard Hyunsuk worked to get his position.

"Jihoon, I have already experienced the feeling to be one of the executive board for the company. Now, I just want to focus on making memories with you. Can I?" Jihoon gritted his teeth. Hyunsuk looks like a desperate puppy right now. He takes a deep breath to control his inner beast.

"Of course, you can, sweetheart. Well, it's a better choice for me. I get to spend more time with you." Jihoon scratches his head. He feels bad fie having an ulterior motive for Hyunsuk's seriousness.

Hyunsuk chuckled. "Geez, I can't keep up with you."

Hyunsuk tossing around in his sleep. He can't bring himself to sleep well even how many times he tried. He then turns his body to face Jihoon who is already in deep sleep.

"Geez, how can someone could look this handsome while sleeping." Hyunsuk giggled softly. Afraid Jihoon might awake. No matter how many times he looked at it, he could never tired to compliment how good-looking Jihoon is while he was sleeping. He stares at Jihoon.

"Jihoon is childish when he is with me. He likes to tease me until I get mad. Then he will apologize real quick by giving me kisses. I am so easy." Hyunsuk chuckled.

"Jihoon's favorite drink is hot chocolate and he eats everything I cooked him. He is a great artist. He owns an art academy. He cooked ramen the best. He is not good with spicy foods which always makes us argue about whether to order spicy rice cakes or sweeter ones. While at the end we will end up ordering two plates of different rich cakes. He always made corny jokes but never failed to make me laugh. He..."

Hyunsuk started chewing on his lower lip as his eyes welled up with tears. No matter how many times he swiped at his eyes but the tears keep flowing down his cheeks. His small lips let out a soft whimper.

"Jihoon is my lover. The person who I love the most. I love him so much. Please God, please never let me forget about these things. Please. Take all of my memories but never my memories about Jihoon. I want to keep remembering him." In his sobs, Hyunsuk mutters incoherent words. He covers his mouth using the blanket afraid he might let out any sounds that could wake Jihoon up.

Days passed by. After quitting his job, Hyunsuk just stay at home as a full-time househusband. He sees Jihoon off for the academy and greets him every time he's home. Jihoon also started to have his lunch at home. It is more convenient for both of them since Hyunsuk doesn't have to take note of the route. On the weekends, they will have a date together.

They took a lot of photos and record some videos. After reaching home, Hyunsuk will do something on his phone or his journal books. Days keep repeating that way.

A year passed by after Hyunsuk was diagnosed with dementia. His symptoms keep worsening despite taking the medications daily. He even started to attend therapy.

One day, he almost set the kitchen on fire. As his nose touches something the burnt smell, dashes to the kitchen. He goes through the notes he sticks in the kitchen. One by one with trembling hands.

"No, no there's no way I forget about this. I wrote it many times. No way!" The tears filled his eyes.

"My name is Choi Hyunsuk. I lived here with my lover, Park Jihoon. Jihoon is my lover. He looks handsome even in his sleep. Jihoon is..." A great tremor overtook him. He falls to his knees. Involuntary whimpers escape his mouth.

"Hyunsuk!" Jihoon runs towards Hyunsuk who is sitting on the floor of the kitchen. He peeks at the burnt pot on the stove. He grabbed Hyunsuk's body and wrapped his arm all over him.

"Jihoonnn. Jihoon my lover. I am sorry, Jihoon. I...am a failure... I...I thought I can do everything on my own, but I can't. Jihoon please save me." Hyunsuk let out whatever was in his thoughts.

"It's alright Hyunsuk. You're not a failure. You did well. Hyunsuk, I love you. I love you so much." Hyunsuk cried in Jihoon's arm. After the calm Hyunsuk down, he brings him to the couch. They ordered Chinese food for dinner.

"Jihoon, do you love me?" Hyunsuk asked as he leaned his head on Jihoon's arm. Jihoon looks at Hyunsuk. Kisses the latter's forehead, then moves to his lips.

"Yes, I do. I love you always Hyunsuk."

"Won't you tired to keep telling me that, Jihoon?"

"No, I won't. Now, let's sleep," Jihoon pulled Hyunsuk's waist closer to him. He whispered everything that happened to him today until Hyunsuk fall asleep.

Choi Hyunsuk, I will always love you. I will never be getting tired to let you know how much I love you. All you must do is hold my hand, smile at me, let me cry with you, eat the foods that I cooked, and always be by my side for my lifetime.

Jihoon looks at Hyunsuk's calm face as he is asleep. He can't bring himself to wake him up since Hyunsuk is sleeping like a log. He took his phone out and snap a few pictures of Hyunsuk.

"Who are you?" The first question Hyunsuk asked after he open his eyes. Pulling himself together, Jihoon smiles.

"I am the person who loves you the most, Hyunsuk." He said trying to suppress the sadness in his voice.

"My Jihoon?" He looked away as his faced turn red. His lower lips quivering. He took a deep breath and forge a smile.

"Yes, I am your Jihoon."