Not A Monster (Kylo Ren X OC)

Kylo Ren

The one and only Kylo Ren looms over me while holding me up from falling over.

I pull away from his seemingly large hand over my stomach and take two steps back. The masked figure calmly positions his hand back to his side and stomps two steps toward me, closing in on our personal space. My admiration and wonder from a distance faces the realization of his true height and just how aggressively large he looks in his outfit. He radiates power and danger. He could simply kill me and that would be the end of it.

And yet...

His mysterious identity draws me in for more. More of what? If only I could answer where exactly my mind is headed. He's known for his terrifying destruction of the world, yet he unifies so many behind him. How could a single man like him strike fear and love into the hearts of countless galaxies? I crave to know more. I crave him.

Oh, how could I ever think about these irrational emotions? This blinded compulsory of...lust is it? Is this a simple lust or could it be more? My body feels the electrifying force of something between us. It's invisible yet physical apprentness just proves it. What exactly is this 'it' that I am so atuned to? I feel his eyes through his mask burning into me and as it tingles my core. His eyes...

A flash of a strangers face beams into my thoughts. What in the world did I just experience?

I reach my hand up to touch his mask. A single finger only grazes the cold metal. He snatches my wrist tightly with his gloved hand. His body backs me into my own room and he slams the door shut without touching it. I could only freeze in terror and brace myself for my arm to snap like a twig. I hold my breath and prepare for the worst. I squeeze my eyes shut.

He lets go.

"If you fear me that much, then why don't you scream, servant?" His robotic sound distorts through his vocoder, masking his own voice.

I squint my eyes open and see myself in my own mirror, cowering before this dangerous man. I could only assume everyone reacts to him in this kind of way. He must be lonely.

"It's better this way." He replies looking away while surveying my large room.

Wait... did he answer me?

His mask turns to me as if it were enough to answer my own question. I could not bare to say another word. The realization of his invasion of my mind left me in a daze as I replay the events of what had just happened. Everything I had ever thought about was and is still on display for him to see. My indecent desires are out. I feel violated, naked, caught. I flush red in embarrassment and regret.

"There's no need for you to feel that way." He cups his hands over his helmet. A hissing noise follows as he lifts his helmet off his face. Dark locks of disheveled hair fall around his shoulder and frames his face effortlessly.

In front of me stands the face I saw in that flash of a vision. His brown eyes gleam in such an innocent way. Dare I say, he is beautiful. His plump pink lips separate as he begins to speak.

"How could you be so infatuated with a monster like me?" His deep calm voice nearly throws my heart into my throat.

I swallow my heart back down to speak. "You're dangerous but you're no monster to me."

He inches closer to me and bends over. His lips are mere inches away from my neck. His hot breath tickles my ear. "How could you be so sure of yourself? I've killed and tortured so many people. Innocent people." He leans away from my ear. Kylo stares intently into my eyes.

"And yet my entire planet supports you. Everyone has to choose a side. All sides are right until they lose." I lean in closer to him. My heart races a mile a minute. I am unable to fully process if this is actually happening or not.