not so perfect after all

Chapter five

Me and Ja'marwin woke at, 8:30, and I instantly thought about everything that had happened the day before I didn't say anything about it though me and Ja'marwin got up to eat something

"Good morning Ja'marwin" I said as we were walking down stairs

"Good morning Lily" said Ja'marwin laughing "Want to eat?"

"Yes can't you hear my belly?" I said pointing to my belly and laughing. She just kept laughing and so did I

"What do you want to eat" she asked

"Bacon and eggs?" I asked

"Yeah what kind of eggs?" she asked

"Scrambled with cheese" I said

"Yes I love those" she said laughing

We made breakfast, and sat down and ate

"I'm sorry I keep bringing it up but are you going to tell anyone about what happened?" Asked Ja'marwin

"Ja'marwin can we please not talk about this I just wish I could forget about it all" I said sadly. Then I heard my phone buzz so I checked it, it was Josh the message said "Hey babe I'm so sorry for what happened yesterday could you ever forgive me? And I'm on my way now to get the bi polar medicine" I read out loud to Ja'marwin

"What are you going to say?" She asked

"I think I'm just going to say 'okay' or should I not text back?" I asked

"Just don't text back for now text him in a few hours and just say 'okay' when you text back" she told me. We finished our breakfast.

"Can I wash my clothes?" I asked

"Yeah I got clothes to wash too" she told me

"Do you have bleach?" I asked

"Yeah it's in the cabinet by the washer"

"Okay thanks" I said putting my shirt underwear and bra in the washer and grabbing the bleach, after I got the bleach and my bloody white shorts I walked up stairs and put bleach and cold water in the bath and put my shorts in there and cleaned them like that, all the blood came out of my shorts.

(In my mind) 'I don't want to tell my parents I don't know why I just don't'
'If I tell the cops he might do worst then he did the first time'

"Earth to Lily" said Ja'marwin I snapped back and looked at her "Lily you need to talk about what happened it will make you feel better"

"I don't want to talk about It please leave me alone I already told you I don't want to talk about it" I said frustrated

"I'm just trying to help you damn" Lily told me angrily

"I'm sorry Ja'marwin I didn't mean to get an attitude I just don't want to talk about it to anyone.... I'm embarrassed about it"

"Why? this happens to a lot of people and if you don't tell anyone.. This could happen to someone else I'm not trying to sound selfish I'm just telling you and you wouldn't want this to have the same experience you did would you?" Said Ja'marwin

"No I don't" I said looking down tearing up

Ja'marwin sits next to me on the bathroom floor. "It's okay. I won't make you do it today, or this week but you need to tell somebody. Wether it's online with a support group to a therapist, or to the police. "
I look up at her. I can barely see her through the tears."Have I ever told you that I love you." She snickers.

"Maybe once or twice." Her eyes were staring to tear up. "You know that if Josh really loved you he wouldn't have done any of this."

"I don't think he can help it. Maybe-" Ja'marwin stops me.

"No. Just don't okay. If he truly loves you then he would NOT have done any of this shit, and I'm sorry if I sound like a bitch but you need to hear this!"

My eyes start burning so badly I let out a little cry. The tears rush down my face. I can't control wether or not I cry anymore. "I...I love him so much."

"I know you do, but... I don't think you should just let him get away with this." Ja'marwin said as she wipes away my tears.

"I'm not. Take me to the police station. I'm going to...I need to tell them."

Hey guys I know this chapter is short and sucks but the next one will be better i promise.!!!!