Heartless Beauty

9: Truth hurts

After practice was over, me and Cameron were getting picked up by my brother. I was super nervous and hoped nothing would happen and Cameron would keep her mouth shut. We both got in his car and she sat in the front next to him. They were talking and occasionally flirting and it made me sick to my stomach. We dropped Carmen off at her mansion because all cheaters have mansions. When we arrived home I was so tense. " What do you want for dinner?"  said Trent. " Trent, we need to talk," I said, biting my lip. " ok so no dinner got it" he replied in a smart ass way. " Listen Carmen is cheating on you" I said. " Are you seriously trying to break me and Carmen up? I knew you hated her but not that bad" he said in disbelief.. I was shocked. "What?? No I wouldn't do that! She was kissing someone at practice when I walked in!" I hated that I was yelling but I couldn't help it. "Oh really," he said, beginning to look annoyed. "Who was it then?" I didn't want to have to say it but I have to now. "Miles.." I mumbled. "Wait. Miles as in the guy YOU were kissing?!" Trent's annoyed look slowly turned into a look of horror. "You're kidding. Right?" I saw him whip out his phone and start typing. I looked over his shoulder to see what he was saying, trying to stay quiet of course. I almost threw up honestly when I read the messages. "Hey, come here right now please." "Of course babe 😉" EWWW! Anyways, she showed up not too long after with some pretty makeup, (red lipstick first to notice.) a short red dress, (try hard?) and curled pretty hair. I knew what she thought this was. "Jos told me something about practice." Her face turned white, although it was hard to tell under the blush. "Oh well I did think I did good in my song...AND HER OF COURSE" Carmen started awkwardly laughing as she said that. "Something...else." Trent mumbled. "Think, did anything happen before practice? Maybe a betrayal of love? Maybe a lil kiss?" He began yelling more and more as he asked each question. "Babe..." Carmen whispered as she glared at me. "Maybe," she began to say, as she focused back on Trent and wrapped her arms around her neck, "we can discuss this in your room instead." I saw a smirk crawl across her face and I realized I technically wasn't in this conversation, just standing away from them, staring with disgust. "Uh- WHAT? NO?! I'm talking to you about how you cheated NOT ABOUT HAVING- nevermind". Trent started.  My face turned red with embarrassment and I slowly stepped back a little. "Carmen, did you kiss Miles? Just tell me I won't judge or anything." I saw Trent glance away a little at the floor as he slowly pushed off Carmen. "W-What?! I would never babe I love YOU nobody else!" Fake tears were forming in her eyes. "J-Just...GET OUT OF MY HOUSE AND DON'T COME BACK YOU...CREEP!" Trent said in disbelief. " I'm so sorry I had to be the one to tell you I just knew I couldn't let this go on" I started. Trent whipped his head around and stared daggers into me. "WHY WOULD YOU TELL ME THAT?" He screamed at me and started shoving his finger at me. "NONE OF THIS WOULD HAVE HAPPENED IF IT WASN'T FOR YOU" Trent screamed running to his room. I just stood there in complete and utter shock. I was being responsible and yelling at him instead of letting him be played. How was I the one at fault? I felt like everyone in the world was mad at me. Maybe they were right, Maybe I did ruin everything, am I the problem. Maybe everything would be better if I just wasn't around. ( a/n TRIGGER WARNING SELF HARM ⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️)
I snatched a pair of scissors off the counter and went to the garage. I pulled out my bike Which  was all dusty. I rode to the park. I guess I go here a lot when I'm sad there aren't any kids though. It's probably because it's all broken down. Kind of like me, left alone to rot away. I sat down under the slide and rolled up my hoodie sleeve to reveal my pale arm. I started to make little slits. The pain turned to pleasure as all of my stress left my body. Just as I went to make a deeper slit someone practically tackled me. "WTF" I yelled. I got out of my trance and realized my blood was all over. My arm started to hurt. I soon felt someone squeezing me so tight yet so soft. " I'm so sorry I never wanted this to happen I'm sorry I'm sorry" it was miles. As soon as I opened my eyes I closed them and kept them closed. I wished it was all just some messed up nightmare. But as I opened my eyes once more I took more time to realize Miles was always there. He's the only one that stopped me, the only one who has taken care of me all of these years no matter how nice or rude. He was there. And he is here again so maybe this time I can get it right. " Please say something," he said. "Thank you" I said, putting my head on his chest. He picked me up bridal style and placed me in his car. " You know I do have to take you somewhere you can choose but I need to make sure you're ok" he said lovingly. " Can we go to your house?" I asked knowing I couldn't go back home. He just nodded. " But why? '' he finally replied. " I'm curious, '' I said. Wrapping my extra hoodie around my arm.